I recently looked up a particular symptom I’ve had for about 5 months. All these random health sites list the same boring possible causes, as well as several cancers that could cause it. Not many people would feel the same but I’d be really relieved if it was cancer. Especially if it was advanced. I could quit school, quit my job, quit everything, and live out the rest of my days however I want with no one blaming me for anything. Most likely just wishful thinking though. The symptom will probably alleviate itself in time and turn out to be nothing. But I can dream, can’t I?
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Only one way to find out…
For just about every symptom I look up, there’s a blend of possible causes from the mundane to several types of cancer. The only way to find out is to get it checked out.
When I’d had ME/CFS for several months I had terrible vertigo and had a head scan. I hoped so much that they’d find something, anything. Partly because there would be another reason for me being so ill all the time, but a part of me was wishing for something more serious.
I know what you mean. I have to get an MRI done because my doctors are very concerned that I could have cancer. They’ve done so many different tests an said everything came out normal now they want to look deeper. I have several symptoms and it worried them. But not me. I’m praying to whatever god there is that I do have it. If I do, I plan on just waiting to die. I don’t mind. I know it sounds horrible to wish to have a something like that but eh.
I too have this wish. I had an MRI done a life while ago hoping of something to come back. Unfortunately nothing.