Hello. I am 15 years old, and I have never met my dad- not my real one anyways. I have a verbally abusive step-dad, and a mother who doesn’t understand what I have been going through.
I am the oldest child of 3, and I have depression.
You may be saying, “well duh, you’re 15” and all the “all teenagers are” but let me tell you that I used to be a happy kid. I was outdoorsy, and social. Now I am a selective mute who hates the outdoors. Actually, I love the outdoors- just not the things in it- if that makes any sense.
I am an animal lover who owns 4 pet rats, a cat and hopes to own a chinchilla shortly. I love allowing them to climb on my shoulders, though it takes a lot of trust to let them do that, so patience is key.
School is school. I’m not smart, but nor am I not smart. I soar at a subject or two, just the other few I am sucking at. I’m sure I could do better if my mother could help me without yelling at me, or I was able to speak to people without freaking out.
It’s life, I’ve learned to cope. After all, just 2 more years and I’ll be out of my family’s hair and out on my own.
Thanks for those who read this.
-Cloverse
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First post.
Oct. 21st 2015
5 comments
I don’t think we can overlook such a nice post 🙂 You certainly seem very self-aware for 15 years old. That is a great life skill and will be very useful to get you through difficult times. Sorry to read that things are difficult for you right now.
I don’t think all of the teenagers have depression. I for one was quite energetic and happy. Nice post and you are definitely handling your life well. But I have to comment on a point, that I’m a bit concerned about your depression. If it makes you find a suicide website and comment on it, then I’d take it a bit seriously. Good that you will leave your home and change your situation and there is a good chance that you’ll have a much better life, keep an eye on your depression so that it doesn’t become more and more severe. Just my advice for you.
I’m sorry you have those problems with your family and that you have depression. I’m glad you’re thinking of the future and keeping in mind that it won’t be like the present. Welcome to the site. 🙂
Hi, Cloverse.
I’ve never met my “real” dad either (well, I saw him at a grocery store years ago when I was helping my grandma, but I don’t think that reall counts, does it?), and I too had to live with an abusive, maniac stepfather and a mom who never stood by my side. I’m 23 now, but my teen years were very important to me, and I am who I am (at least partially) because of my teen years; so even though people say that “all teenagers are depressed”, that in fact doesn’t matter. Your age doesn’t immediately make your depression less important or real. I’m glad you like animals, I’m an animal lover too. Hopefully we will hear from you again soon (:
Cloverse,
i’m sorry too 🙁 your 15 things will get better 🙂 don’t fall in the wrong crowd and think about getting somekind of a Career don’t sweat it just work on it, so you will be ready.