i want to yell scream at the top of my lungs let them know how im really doing give them a chance to save me a chance to reach out and offer another option just one reason to stay a chance to show me someone out there still cares but i cant find the words dont know how to get it all off my mind without seeming like im just fishing for attention but maybe i need a little attention maybe i need the people in my life to let me know i still matter
4 comments
If there are people in your life then you matter to them. It’s not something that people say a lot, but that doesn’t mean it’s not true. If it’s sincere, and you have a bond with them, they will take you seriously. And ya know plenty of SP’ers care, in that wonderful way that they will.
I think the basic version of the words you’re looking for go something along the lines of “hey [person] can I talk with you? It’s important. For a while now, I’ve been feeling really low. To the point where I just want all of it to stop. And… I’m getting closer to ending everything. I don’t know what to do.” That’s a start. And options… I guess there’s treatment options… But you’re the one who’s going to have to work up the nerve to reach out, or suffer with silent screams… Up to you which is better, both have consequences
There’s nothing wrong with needing attention, especially when you feel like this. On top of it being agony sometimes, it can be hard to remember people care. Ask for someone to remind you if you can. 🙂
I feel the same way. How can ALL the people in my life be so blind. I’m not ok!! I want to cry and scream at the top of my lungs. But I don’t. I hide and cry. I put on a happy face…. It’s exhausting
I understand that. There have been times in each of our lives where we would have loved it if somebody decided to take a special interest in us and decide to tell us we’re worth the space we take up. Funny thing is we’re just supposed to feel all of their invisible love and caring, but we can’t. Our current mental makeup makes it so difficult to do that. So no, it is not wrong to want attention and you do deserve it. Sadly, we are only a poor substitute