Date tonight

I was so done after this veteran was full of crap when I dated him. I even went out of my way to get transportation to see him. That’s how much I cared. He told me he was in love with me and other sweet things. I get too caught up in words. They mean nothing. After seeing him and not hearing from him, I went on the dating site and told him off. I told him I hope someone breaks his heart. He said he couldn’t find my number, but he could have easily found me on the dating site like I found him. He can kick rocks.

Fast-forward to this new guy who has been texting me day and night. He texts me good morning and makes sure he says good night. Too good to be true? Hope not. I like that he’s a social worker, he’s understanding. So tonight is date night and we’re going to a Middle Eastern restaurant near me. I’m scared honestly. I just want to have fun. Meeting someone for the first time is like jumping off a cliff, it’s frightening. I have to calm down and remember it’s just dinner. And no way I could do this without my benzos. I would be a total wreck. Don’t know what I’m rambling about, but just when I think I’m done with guys, someone else comes along. It doesn’t take away my depression, but I guess it’s better than nothing. Gotta start getting ready. Have a good night. 🙂

And believe there can be someone out there for you too. You just can’t stop trying.