lately ive been crying and i hate myself so much, ive done horrible things to myself im seriously thinking about suicide with some pils. im fat af and ugly and all the bad things that someone could ever imagine. IM starting to vomit after every meal, im losing my mind lately, and no one notice.
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I’m sorry you are in so much pain. I can relate. I have been self loathing far more than I’ve ever done. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror because I don’t recognize the person I see. And the things I have done to myself are unimaginable.
Maybe you should see a doctor about your problem.
i actually tried but i dont know i dont anyone to worry about me because im worthless im uselesss, they would not even care if i tell them, im so young to be feeling this way, i shouldn’t.
I have the same thoughts running through my head often. It’s really hard but the key is to change your habits. To combat my weight gain I’ve started using an elliptical every morning, the first thing I do is hop on and do 20 minutes. I started with 5 and added a few minutes every other day. Once I built the habit it’s much easier but it’s really hard getting started. Next I want to start meditating every morning, just focus on loving myself. The last and probably the hardest for me will be changing my diet, I think I’m going g to go ketogenic but I’m bad with self control.
I’m so sorry you are in this state. The patsy kline song I fall to pieces….just the title. The songs lyrics are amazing but not about what you are going through. Keep posting talking helps me get through the day.