Trying to fight depression and fatigue. I’ve been taking ephedrine and caffeine to lose weight. It is helping but a side effect is fucked up sleep. I work in a few hours at a job i can’t do and will be fired from soon. I haven’t put in other applications or done anything with my business (web design I’ve only got 2 clients in the past year) or potential businesses i want to start (game/app design, and t-shirt company). Im just moping on my mom’s couch.
My neck is fucked up. It’s been jacked up for a while idk if all of this exercise is helping it at all. Yesterday was only the 4th rest day ive taken from working out the past 3 weeks. I want to exercise as often as possible the endorphin high fools me into forgetting depression.
I wonder if I’ll ever find someone and if so how. Ive made very few friends of any kind since high school over a decade ago. Now i don’t even live in the same state. Meeting people is unnatural for me. How will i meet a girl? Certainly not my ratchet ass temp job. I go back and forth on whether or not im attractive enough to get someone. There are certainly other people who arent models in happy relationships and my standards on looks aren’t as high as my standards on the quality of the person. Not saying she has to be perfect but the person inside is more important. Ok enough rambling.