I can….

I can hold a knife to my wrist or a pillow to my face, and sometimes I feel I will. I just want to make mine and other peoples lives easier.

” It’s easy ” I think ” it’s quick “

But that isn’t my original voice, no. It’s the voice created by the Haters of my life and it seemed to have disguised its self to sound like me.

But it isn’t easy because you have to leave the people you love behind, never able to see their smiles or hear their laugh again.

But even I know that might not stop me or others in the future. just a swipe then the pain and sadness is over

My life will be over….

I can put on a mask and pretend nothings happened and the night before I didn’t hold a knife against my wrist or a pillow to my face…

I can pretend and hide…and I will because I’m a survivor and not a quitter..but for how long?….