hi, my name is Julianna and this is my story.
I’ve been bullied like crazy since I’ve moved to Alaska. I’ve made some bad decisions and I regret them very much. Boys here like to take advantage of me. I always saw the good in them. They ask me to be their girlfriend. After a few days in the middle of the night they ask me to send them nude pictures of myself. They tell me they love me and that this is what people that trust and love each other do. I sent them. Recently a boy I’ve like for many months did this to me. I fell for it again. I always saw him as a perfect angel. After I sent him the pictures he sent them and showed them to everyone. I don’t even know some of the people that he showed the pictures to. Now my life is finally over. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m suicidal again. I was 3 months clean until now. I need help. If anyone could show me or help me please let me know. Everything I could possibly have left from the hell I’ve been living in has completely left. I hope you read this and never do anything like what I did.
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Hi Julianna,
I am sorry people do take advantage of other people and it shouldn’t be that way. Bad thing here is that guy’s a jerk.
I can’t think of anything except the all same thing everyone sais: time will heal it. I mean it and that’s the only thing that has worked for me.
You say you’ve been clean for three months? Of what? That’s a nice period of time for whatever, keep on going, don’t let bad feelings get the best of you.
Thanks that means a lot at your attempt to try and give me encouraging words. And I was 3 months clean of not attempting suicide
Just play it off. Act like you’re confident in your body, you don’t care who sees it. If a boy gives you shit, tell him he’s just jealous his girlfriend doesn’t send him pics. If a girl talks shit, tell her she’s just jealous her boyfriend is looking at you instead.
Then, maybe quit sending nudes. If a boy asks, if he knows you done it before, say… I use to do that,yes, but I’ve moved on to better things.
What better things he’ll ask?…
Well, you’ll have to wait and find out, prove you’re worthy.
ohhh I love your sweet wise side…big al
He committed a crime. I don’t know how it is in the USA, but here it is a crime. How old are you? You should talk to the police or your teachers if you are studying. Nonetheless, it is a crime and he should be punished.
It’s a crime in the US as well, but, judging by the fact she’s in highschool, I’m guessing she’s under 18
Didn’t mean to post that, but anyways… I reread and it doesn’t say highschool, but I’m assuming she’s young. In the US they have a bad habit of charging young girls with manufacturing child pornography, the recipient with possession of…
THis sucks so freaking much… Ugh. It’s just that hormones are either beginning to running rampant or already are around that time and that’s when it happens…
I’m just sorry that it happened to you..
I’ll tell you that I’ve done it myself… Not my proudest moment, and I sent twice to two different people who live nowhere near me..
I haven’t seen the pictures since, which is kind of a good thing (I assume I got lucky and they were deleted), but generally speaking once you do that, there’s no telling where they will end up most of the time..
Again, really sorry this bs happened to you :/
This is just a guess, but what happens is you’re lonely because of the bullying, moving somewhere new, etc.
Then someone is nice to you, and you are so grateful/feel so dependent on that kindness, that you are willing to do pretty much anything for them.
Then they betray your trust and publicly shame you.
You then feel even lonelier, and become even more succeptible to the next “nice” person that comes along.
I suffer from this habit myself, so I’m not sure how to break it, but I have an idea:
1) It’s probably a good idea to be your own best friend. Don’t join in the bullying of you. It is so easy to let someone else’s opinion of you become your own. Don’t – whatever weaknesses you have are not the whole story, and if you base your life around them, you won’t have time for all the good things about you.
2) Learn to recognize people who ACTUALLY make you feel good, and really do have good intentions. I sometimes think a lot of women fall for guys with bad intentions (or rather: horny, egocentric, immature guys) because they are blind to those intentions. If your own intentions are mostly good, how the hell do you even recognize cruelty? How can you? It is alien to you.
But with practise, it is my experience that you can learn to recognize the PEOPLE that make you happy and are good for you – rather than the ones that pretend to care. I have had to learn that myself dealing with customers. It is very easy to let the minority of total assholes ruin your day, or to get into arguments with them. But now I try to treasure the customers that make me happy instead.
Choose those people and build relationships with them. No one else can tell you who makes you happy, only you can feel that. Remember that guys like sex enough that they will sleep with women they would never have a relationship with. Learn to distinguish between guys that are genuinely infatuated with you, and those that just want to get into your pants. Then you can make your own decisions as to what you are after.
It’s funny, because I was always very picky about things like the movies I watch, the stuff I buy, etc. But with people, I always felt like it was my duty to be nice to everybody. And to give everybody my time. Because, you know, compassion. But there are billions of people on this planet. You have to choose who you spend your life with. And that choice matters far more than movies and stuff you buy. So choose the best people for you – the ones that make you happy, and don’t be afraid to be on your own for awhile. But, of course, you can also meet new people through other people. So it’s a balance.
Anyway, take care, and big hugs. What you went through must hurt like hell. But not all people are like that, and trust me, the ones that are not can make you happy enough that all that shit you went through doesn’t matter.
🙂