Do I deserve this terror-ible life?
Not just terrible, terror-ible.
I feel like I deserve more than what I am today.
Here are a few key factors to me, my personality, my life.
1. I took many online tests, all of them says I am a good person.
2. I almost never lie, and I’m also not lying when I say this.
3. I only cheated in school tests 2 times. And I regret.
4. I am 9.
5. I think I am gifted: I can do the rotate leg clockwise and write 6 with index finger in the air thing and not change direction, I’m one of the few people who can do it. Also, I use parentheses in mathematics on tests. Also, I literally had a question that said “What is 3 in between” or something like that. I said 0 and infinity. (with the lying down 8 symbol). Of course I could just do in between 3-(1/infinity or an infinitesimal) and pi, but I didn’t know pi back then.
6. My mother is loving. Sometimes can be a bit bad but love her.
7. My father… I don’t even know anymore. He pulls my hair and slaps me, verbally abusing me causing psychological damage to my brain, subliminally.
8. I get punishment for nothing. Also, it’s a myth that punishments literally make people have good behavior. After I was punished for nothing many consecutive times, seriously I got way worse. Punishment causes psychological damage to the brain as I said on 7, also teaches the child how to do psychological damage to other people’s brains. Seriously.
9. I have so much depression despite these things, even when I looked back on my life I feel much more depressed. Even when I did absolutely nothing wrong.
10. Nobody understands me.
11. I am a magnet for bullies.
12. I am OVERLY DEFENSIVE.
13. I feel like suiciding.
14. I hate myself.
15. I feel like I deserve more than what I am now.
16. I am a lie detector.
17. I am 41 kg. (Overweight)
18. I am suicidal, I feel like killing myself.
19. I feel like 19 seconds of horribleness is 19 days.
20. I don’t know, but I might be suffering from depression.
(will add more soon)
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did I read that right. did you say you are 9?
wasd2333, NINE!!!! YOU ARE NINE!!!!! OMG! This kid is a genius!!! tell me what’s your secrete? what do you eat? You have a bright future AHEAD! We all created by the way, actually that’s something everyone needs to learn to do to make it in life too!! 🙂
I want to give you hot wheels and teddy bear and hugs lil guy
If your nine the its all baby fat it will melt away and beat the shit out of those bullies