So I currently sit in hospital… I was successful but unfortunately I was revived… I was happy I was there I had eternal bliss but no I was revived unfortunately people “apparently” wanted me alive… I just want to be happy is that to much to ask for?
I hope there isn’t much pain unfortunately a lot of EMTs (if that is who revived you) just follow protocol not realizing they could be causing pain physical and emotional but I must admit I have so many questions about your experience
Probably but when they first did it, it just made me worse so tbh idk whats worse is I’m not aloud painkillers… They say if I have some it could possibly kill me because of what I took… Just give me the painkillers I don’t want to be here anymore. Just make this process quicker… End it all…
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I hope there isn’t much pain unfortunately a lot of EMTs (if that is who revived you) just follow protocol not realizing they could be causing pain physical and emotional but I must admit I have so many questions about your experience
Tbh I rather not talk bout it on details I’m still trying to process shit…
In detail *
Understandable
I’m so angry and disappointed in myself and now I can’t even self harm to make myself feel better.
Hay Sui how u doing
I’m doing horrible thanks… How about you?
I am so sorry this happened to you.
Why do you feel disappointed in yourself though? Because you tried or because it didn’t succeed?
Because I didn’t succeed yet again and its funny 7th attempt first time being in hospitsl because of a suicide attempt…
Seventh? Oh that sucks. 🙁
As did try it again sre they gonna take you away?
Probably but when they first did it, it just made me worse so tbh idk whats worse is I’m not aloud painkillers… They say if I have some it could possibly kill me because of what I took… Just give me the painkillers I don’t want to be here anymore. Just make this process quicker… End it all…
WOW..tell me did you see of feel something while you were gone?