No one will ever believe you, in all of truth’s entirety, until you’re dead. No one will completely understand the pain you were going through or how serious you were, until they find your body.
Not your parents, not your friends, not your doctors.
You only have yourself until you’re dead.
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All the more reason to do it soon.
You’re probably right.
And then they will act all SURPRISED, as if they had no idea and didn’t see it coming.
What makes you think they’ll understand when you’re dead? No one can read your mind.
I can’t speak for the OP, of course, but I interpreted it to mean that people will finally understand how serious the problem was.
They may never understand the motivation or reasoning or our personal path, but at least they will finally grasp the seriousness and gravity and finality of the situation.
(121115? Is that what you meant?)
absolutely, always remember that, that’s why it’s up to you to be strong for yourself, nobody can truly understand your pain, everyone is unique, i can’t understand others pain a lot of the time, but i believe them,
example:
i’m going to get a job!
yeah! sure! you are! ha ha!
i got a job!!!
i knew you could do it!!
people tend to down play what you tell them.
example:
i’m really depressed!!! i’m thinking of killing myself!!! awww!!
what did he tell you?
he said he was sad but i told him don’t worry things will get better!!
Well said. As one who has been very vocal of my struggles I still believe there’s a lack of comprehension on their end as to the seriousness. Ironically, I just had a moment yesterday with my sister when Robin Williams was mentioned. She said something to the effect of that you’d never have guessed. And I just looked at her and said “No one ever does.” And they never will.
lmi, funny Robin Williams now when i think of it, i never really thought he was funny, he said the lines to make people laugh but he never looked happy to me? as stupid as it sounds, the man was suffering from depression from the get go, i’m not knocking him, the poor guy just couldn’t fight it till he died of natural causes.
I thought he could definitely be funny.
He made me laugh many times.
But I know what you mean; there always seemed to be a sad person hidden behind the mask of hilarity.
It’s not “natural causes” if he tied a rope around his neck…
I think maybe what rocketman meant was that Robin couldn’t wait for the natural causes to eventually kill him, so he sped things up by taking his life into his own hands.
(rocketman? Is that what you meant?)…??
Robin Williams was Bi-Polar. He could get manic as hell.
Super manic. 🙂
He was amazing to watch.
There were times he was so wound up I expected him to spontaneously combust.
Awesome guy.
Loved and missed.
I totally get why he tied a rope around his neck and hung himself from a door. when I get out of control it seems the most rational thing to do sometimes. It will end the pain, the mania. The fucking crap shoot daily. Will it be a good day? Will God command me to to this and that. Will it be grey. Will I delete all my art and poetry in a paranoid attempt to control my surroundings. Up and down, this and that. No one understands. Like a damn pendulum swinging back and forth and I am under it. It is razor sharp and it swings way way way out and back again. Now and then it grazes my neck or stomach.
Reminds me of Edgar Allen Poe’s “Pit and the Pendulum”.
poestories.com/text.php?file=pit
I learned recently that THAT’S my mother’s favorite Poe story. (!)
(My favorite is The Cask Of Amontillado.)
😉
Yeah, I was thinking of that when I was writing that. I feel like someone sucked all the life and energy out of me tonight. Just spent.
I have days like that (often) when my energy is absolutely GONE, as if something went out of its way to deplete me.
It reminds me of how a starfish eats by turning its stomach inside out.
Life goes out of its way to eat up my (and your) energy, even if it has to turn itself inside out to get that job done.
Is that how you feel too?
reference.com/pets-animals/starfish-turn-its-stomach-inside-out-2138660f21659bcb
^^ that was for hazy.
the great cyber-monster didn’t drop my comment in the right spot. 🙂
Although I guess it could also fit the OP too.
Yeah. Life turned itself inside out and ate me today. Culmination of many things, all of which I have zero control over. Even work frustrated me, and that is the most unlikely area of my life to feel defeated.
Philosophical quandary: Which is worse?
1. Having zero control over something which proceeds to destroy you, knowing there’s no way you could have stopped it,
or
2. Having control but not being successful. (“I could’ve stopped this from happening, if only I’d…. (insert variable here)” )
Gosh Cordless, either of those suck. I’d rather have control though. Not having control sends me out gun shopping to end the pointlessness of living.
#2 is worse because it means you fought and you were defeated.
In scenario #1 your fate was already sealed. The game was rigged, you never stood a chance.
The amount of ‘control’ we have is limited either way. Hindsight is 20/20, “would’ve could’ve should’ve” second guessing yourself after the fact is pointless. Can’t change the past, ruminating over history doesn’t change it.
Sage words there Morris.
Yes, I definitely agree with Morris.
(**checks to see if apocalypse has begun**)
You agree with Morris?
This is a sure sign from The Universe that you need to seek counseling from a licensed, psychiatric professional as soon as possible.
Dammit, now I agree *again*…
Haha.
You’re obviously losing your mind, but that’s ok. This is the right site for that. (Judgment free zone).
This is very true.
Thanks for the replies. I really enjoy reading what conversations my post led to. I hope I offered some small time frame of solace, albeit for a moment.