I created an account on here about four years ago, when I suffered from crippling depression. After a close relative found out after going on my laptop, I was “banned” from this site. They believed it was just feeding my inner demons with shit they didn’t need.
Anyway, fast forward to November the 8th 2016, 11:04pm GMT. Here I am lying in my bed, writing my first entry in 4 years on a brand new account.
To be honest I don’t really know why I’ve come back here. Right now I don’t feel suicidal, or do I? I’m not sure. I’ve gone so long with this constant emptiness and temptation that I don’t even know. I’ve waited years and years for the perfect moment to you know end it all, so these feelings are not scary to me anymore. Maybe THAT is the scary part of all of this?
I don’t know to be honest, I just feel like writing. So I came back here.
I’ll probably start writing on here often. I don’t know.
But yeah, once again – Hello.
2 comments
Is that scary relative still there?
I honestly feel a lot of these people are mopers and will bring you down. I try so hard to keep my chin up and on days it gets bad I look for some support on this site. I’ve yet to find any besides one member I’ve lost contact with. This site lately just feels like a dump site for people who have no coping skills and are at their wits end with no motivation to get better and want to whine about trifling affairs they call their depression. Whoever banned you from this site had the best intentions for you but you should be able to make your own decisions and see for yourself if this site helps. Hope you feel better soon so you can pass on this website and get your depression under control.