Is It Really All It’s Going To Take?

I do not think I am capable of being loved. I fear that I am never going to be able to find someone who will love me the way I fail to love myself. It has always been my only hope. What if it’s the only way all of this will ever get better? To find the right person who will always be there for me. The thing is I’ve been lied to so many times that I don’t think I can trust anyone anymore. People talk to me when they need something then they just disappear. If I refuse to do what they ask for I’m immediately considered as this crazy ***** that seeks attention. I think that all it takes is someone who deeply cares. Someone that will be there when it is 3am and I’m up with my thoughts. However, how am I supposed to be loved when I can’t even love myself?