I don’t even know what to do anymore, why’s that? Cause I don’t even know what’s happening to me. I think of suicide at least once a day, I think the best decision would be to actually try again and succeed. The only reason why I haven’t killed myself yet is my family, I know they love me, I can’t disappoint them. I’m not sure for how long I can do that though. I should be fucking happy, I have a nice family, I have friends, I live in a nice house, but why the fuck do I wanna end it all then?
I wish someone loved me. I wish someone looked at me and thought about our future together. I wish someone dreamed of me. I fucking wish. That’s not going to happen though, people don’t like me. I spend ages thinking about how I could make them feel better, but no one ever asks me how I feel. No one fucking cares.
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Why dont people like you?
Wow I can relate so much to you… I have a loving family but other than that I have nothin … I don’t really have friends and guys treat me like total crap… maybe that’s my fault because I choose crappy guys… but I always wonder what’s wrong with me. Am I annoying? Am I weird? Am I boring? Am I lame? Am I stupid? Do I try too hard? It sucks… and I know exactly how you feel… I don’t know if I will ever kill my self because I don’t want my family member to suffer but I hate life so so much… and I can’t even imagine my future because I know no one will ever love me for me or actually want me… they’ll just use me then leave
I’m really sorry to hear this…I am with you. Me too, I’ve got everything I need, just want to be loved, but that’s not going to happen