Tired

I dont want to go to sleep and wake up alive.
I dont wanna wake up and feel like i should had died in my sleep.
Im very tired.
but i want to died not having to be tired anymore.
Im beating myself up.
Staying awake when im very tired
Falling asleep
but aways waking up wondering…
why am i still here
why am i breathing this wrecked air.
I dont even wanna get out of bed
or leave my house anymore.
I’m just…. very tired :/