It seems like a few people have complained about my attitude and presence here, so here’s a little insight about me and my often light-hearted tone, I’m somewhere between 20 and 30 years old, I’ve been depressed ever since I was 17 and well despite I’m doing better sometimes just like lately, I think this condition really never leaves you. Yes, I often have suicidal thoughts but I never got close to attempt one nor I feel I would. My first impression when I checked this site, is that it was filled with too much negativity, the way I see it it can be the only hope for a few people who think they are scraping the bottom, but at the same time can further increase alienation and the elitary feeling for others, instead of going the rehabilitating way. Yes most people will disagree here with me and I’m not addressing to anyone in particular, but this is my opinion and sorry if it disturbs you. I feel like the only thing I could do here is breaking the atmosphere a bit, since I’m doing okayish lately, trying to positively influence people, and I would like to think by the few exchanges I had with some here that they appreciated. Others seemingly didn’t, perhaps I I’m a disruption here and I’m taking off space from other people, so my intention was completely wrong, I guess I’d like to gather some feedback.
Mordred, I disagree with the way he addressed to me and others in his post along with a few assumptions, but he has been open about himself and his lack of empathy, I respect his opinion nonetheless, and I don’t think he should leave, I believe if there is a place he should be it’s exactly this place, this community. I hope this part of my post won’t make him dislike me further, but I am who I am and I can’t change that.
Back on topic, I’ll take my time and consider whether leaving or staying.
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Mordred didn’t address you. He just stated some ambiguous categories that may or may not apply to specific people, whom he didn’t mention even in passing. Also, just to point out the irony because I’ve seen this several times now, whenever people say, “I wish X would stay on this suicide site. This is where they belong.” I can’t help but laugh a little. That’s a terrible thing to say, but I know that’s not how anyone means it.
If you’re doing okayish, and want to bring some levity to this dark and disturbed part of the internet, you had better be careful. This void will stare back into you and turn you into a monster if you’re not careful. We’re all mad here. Have a spot of tea.
You’re right about the fact that he did not addressed to me directly, but the way he described clearly applied to me, who else is talking about Discord all the time? Also that’s not the only thing.
Yes indeed I didn’t think it could be assume this meaning, but you know what I’m trying to say, if this site helps him he should stay here, but of course if he gets better I wish not to visit this site at all.
I’m not sure I understood your part about being careful and making a monster out of me, and since I find it interesting I’d be glad if you could explain it in a more clear way.
Thanks for the tea and the feedback, I appreciate it. As a foot note I’d like to add that while I am doing better and I could donate some hope and share a little positivism, at the same time, it might be coincidental or not, but I feel drained of my energies, my mood is worse, motivation and all the rest.
This is all stuff I’ve just happened to realise.
I meant: my mood and the other stuff have bern worse since I joined this site, and I don’t know if it’s a coincidence or not.
When you engage with people who are suffering from depression/anxiety issues deep enough to lead them to a site like this, you’re going to have to think about the things they’re talking about. The problems they have. The reasons they feel the way they do. And, being human, you’ll empathize with them. This might not sound bad, but all empathy is an exchange. You recognize yourself in the other person. That can do a number on anyone.
Your post as well as Mordred’s post make me think that perhaps I should really leave this site unless I really need it. On the other hand it sounds a bit selfish for me to leave, considering I’ve been there. The way I see it, if you have something spare, why not giving? I know how it feels when you’re in need and nobody is there for you.
Yet now that I have an account and I know the existence of this community I feel it would take so much for me to ignore or try to forget it.
I’m just saying, take care not to get to wrapped up in it. Take it in stride, and don’t forget to have some tea and breathe from time to time. If you’re starting to get worn out, take a break for a bit. If you don’t mind my asking, what is it that first brought you here?
An “online” friend of mine linked me to this site, I’m not aware if he has an account I never dared to ask him. I lurked for quite some time, I had set up an RSS feed which would post each time there was a new topic. After a while that sparked a few discussions, so I realised I had a few questions and wanted to know more.
Thanks, for your suggestion I appreciate the honest advice and I’ll keep that in mind.
Mordred’s post was a real dick move, and if he had a scrap of integrity he’d apologize for being off his nut when he made it. The problem with his post is that it was such a passive-aggressive jab at the entire community (we each fall unto one or more of his forbidden categories) that every one of us will be wondering if we’re the one who pissed him off. So it was like a terrorist attack designed to weaken the fabric of the whole community by stirring paranoia and fear. From the tone of your post, it sounds like it worked. But from where I’m sitting, hurrdurr, you’re A-OK while Mordred looks like a dick. I hope you stay because positivity and levity is a rare commodity around here. Don’t let the negative nellies run you off and claim this site. I have no problem with anyone here, happy, gloomy, whatever, as long as they refrain from attacking others. Please stick around, buddy.
“I hope you stay because positivity and levity is a rare commodity around here.”
Thank you I was really starting to question my idea, I’m glad to know that you appreciate it, I will stick around then.
🙂 I’m glad you’re staying.
It seems like the site goes through different “moods”. Currently it’s pretty dark and miserable, but things cycle around.