So, idk how to start this but here goes.
(Sorry it’s so long)
I keep going back to this same guy just because he’s the only person who’s ever really liked me for me. He doesn’t ever want a relationship but I always have, but when I bring it up he pushes it aside and doesn’t want to talk about it because he always has an excuse. I know what some people are gonna say, that it’s a toxic relationship or that he doesn’t give a shit and ik all of that but, I can’t get him out of my head. He’s the only thing stopping me from ending it tbh. He asks if I’m okay, we joke around and he tries to make me feel better.
I keep going back because I can’t get anyone better. Who wants a relationship with me. I mean I have friends and they are so nice but I don’t fit in because they are all so gorgeous. Whenever I get close to someone it’s only to ask about my friends and that makes me feel even more shitty.
The sad reality is we won’t ever be together and it kills me but what kills me even more is the thought of not having someone to talk to, he’s my lifeline and I don’t know if I can carry on. We fell out and haven’t spoken in weeks. I’m seriously debating whether I have anyone left due to having a shitty home life.
I have nothing left and I’m at a dead end.
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I know what you mean. There’s lots of people I want to be friends with ect and they never seem to feel the same. I mean I haven’t hung out with a friend in over 2 years or so. I’m kinda always alone.
So yeah. If you ever want someone to talk to my email is devinbelver@yahoo . It not that’s fine, but I’m always here if you want to talk to someone.
Yeah I feel alone all the time and Ik I have basically a whole life to go to find friends but it’s hard bc I’ve constantly moved schools due to bullying and not getting on with people. I just find it hard to fit in and I have friends but like I said they aren’t really people I can confide in.
Thankyou for your email and I may, if I really need to talk with someone, email you. I hope you find someone to talk to in the future though.
This sounds painful. I might have a few ideas to run by you. First, may I ask about your age and school or work you are involved in. Please be a bit vague of course.
BTW, I had a shitty home life too. Not a show stopper but it sure made things a lot more work for me in finding a lady and keeping her happy. Same goes for everyone coming from a shitty home life.
I’m 16 nearly 17 and doing my A levels so it’s pretty stressful atm. It’s hard finding someone to talk to about home life bc nobody listens properly or they just give me sympathy. I just don’t want sympathy bc I’m just talking about my everyday life. I just find t hard to connect with anyone really.
So you are doing your A levels, that would be a stressor. Right now would feel like the right time to have some one close to you to talk to and he is not up for it.
Ok, I can see where this would hurt. You have been friends for years so taking it to the next level with him would seem the natural progression of things too. But he is not ready for that step. Not only is he unable to take it to the next level, he is also unable to keep things at the level they were once at. Unfortunately, I have been in a situation like this myself. May I ask his age (more or less) before I go on?
He’s the year above (17) so Ik he has other things to worry about but I spend nights wondering why I can’t just find someone else to talk to, but it seems I can’t find anyone who wants to talk about anything serious in their lives. I just need someone else to hold a mature conversation but it’s so hard to find. That’s why I joined this site to, well, see how other people cope with life being stressful and having no one there. It would just be nice to have a reason to feel emotionally stable for once.
I know what you mean about not being able to find someone else to talk to about the serious things. In my lifetime I have found only a very few who can do that at all. Of those four, one of them is my therapist.I am on this site day in and day out because this is the only place I know of where people openly express this desire to leave the pain, question unswerving devotion to living, dare to question living itself. I also don’t see very many people here promoting procreation. This is my kind of place.
How old are you? God I hope you don’t waste your time over this guy 🙁 if I could go back and talk to my younger self I would have really tried to avoid these type of guys. Women only have a short time to get things right while we are young but we are told that there’s no rush lol! I know you don’t feel very confident, but please try to find a nice guy that is willing to commit to u while u are young enough. It’s a numbers game when ure dating. Don’t get stuck on that one guy who is wasting your precious time. I ended up with no kids or husband at 41 and believe me when I say men are not that interested in you definitely by your early 30’s dating gets significantly more challenging bc your marriage sexual market value for women drops off starting by age 24.
I’m 16 nearly 17 and Ik I’m quite young but yeah, tbh I’ve wasted a lot of my time on him we’ve been friends since we were 13 so it’s difficult bc we’ve shared so much together. I am trying to focus on school atm instead of guys and drama but I find it hard bc I have zero people to talk to.