I can’t keep living like this. I feel like a social failure, and its only getting worse. I booked a one way ticket, and if somehow this journey does not change something for me, I have brought rope to kill myself. Know it is a longshot, and why would anything change…. but I can’t live on like this. If death is waiting for all of us, then why prolong the pain of living. I just dont feel I belong in this world. Nothing wrong with it, I just should not be here. Everyone is better than me, and would be better off without me. There would be shock, but eventually people would realise what a burden I am. I guess I will see some of the world before I die. Love is a tricky thing; it is the only thing worth living for, and yet out of anyones control. Dont get me wrong, this is how it should be, but… I dont know. I’ve always wondered what is on the other side. Guess I will find our sooner rather than later. My dad is waiting for me as well, and if he is pissed that I did the same as he did, then fuck him.
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This is a heavy post. I seen you on here before.
But I never knew your story.
I still don’t know your whole story.
If you are up, I’ll be up for a while.
Your Dad won’t be pissed, I bet.
Please stay….I know there was someone I’ve been wanting to know awhile who was REALLY quite close recently…..they went and spoke with my neighbor…..
Never be afraid to ask someone a question or start a conversation and reach out to someone new or old. You might be the only person who does.
this is seriously sad.
don’t do it.
:^(