I’ve been trying to leave my city for a very long time.. there is nothing worth seeing here and very evil people .. now that the nightmares have got me from the inside out there is no use escaping the city because they will still follow me around, all I can do to escape now is commit suicide, at least the nightmares killed me and not the dream I was chasing
Well I’m strongly not attracted to males, at all, – and some females I find attractive but it doesn’t matter my sexuality much .. I’m not interested in actually developing romantic relationships because I always planned to kill myself, my date was set for August 2012 and very upset with myself still being alive today. My wish is to go to the woods in a vehicle and shoot myself through the mouth with shotgun towards brain.. I’m 24, been suicidal since a wee 12, and planned the date from 12-17, to finally end it on the week of my 18th birthday. I suffer through it, but try to stay focused on my goals.
There is, but it’s very slow going and takes a lot work…which sucks, cause it’s hard to stay on task to achieve things like improving body, sourcing the income to move from a house or city, etc.. I mean, I feel the same way, deplore the inescapable condition of being a human, no other option but to carry microbes around for whatever reason.. But there is value in working towards some form of improvement. Even just going on a hike if you can. It’s nice
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I’ve been trying to leave my city for a very long time.. there is nothing worth seeing here and very evil people .. now that the nightmares have got me from the inside out there is no use escaping the city because they will still follow me around, all I can do to escape now is commit suicide, at least the nightmares killed me and not the dream I was chasing
May l ask you some questions?
Sure I been on this site daily for almost 2 years. Haha, can’t get around to the final act..
Are you a lesbian woman? How old are you?
Well I’m strongly not attracted to males, at all, – and some females I find attractive but it doesn’t matter my sexuality much .. I’m not interested in actually developing romantic relationships because I always planned to kill myself, my date was set for August 2012 and very upset with myself still being alive today. My wish is to go to the woods in a vehicle and shoot myself through the mouth with shotgun towards brain.. I’m 24, been suicidal since a wee 12, and planned the date from 12-17, to finally end it on the week of my 18th birthday. I suffer through it, but try to stay focused on my goals.
Do you live alone? Do you have a job?
I use memes and try to be slightly positive even though I don’t like being positive
There is, but it’s very slow going and takes a lot work…which sucks, cause it’s hard to stay on task to achieve things like improving body, sourcing the income to move from a house or city, etc.. I mean, I feel the same way, deplore the inescapable condition of being a human, no other option but to carry microbes around for whatever reason.. But there is value in working towards some form of improvement. Even just going on a hike if you can. It’s nice