I was off here for about a good couple years I got better what was dragging me down before I cut out my life but now idk what is. This time it is so much worse and different cause Ik this time I’m the one hurting myself I’m the one putting these thoughts into my head that no one likes me, I’m gonna be alone forever Bc of how I act I’m awkward around everyone I don’t know what to say; how to start a conversation. I feel bad for the people I like Bc of who I am idk how to go up to them and jus talk to them so I jus look admire them when all I wanna do is fuckin talk to them but I can’t and it’s gone way to far for them to even think I’m a normal outgoing. It jus hurts having to know I act this way and not be able to change it always caring scared of the future thinking I won’t have a good job I’m to stupid and brain dead no one will love me or even be friends wit me I’m to awkward as a person I’m not gonna get anywhere:/great
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They shouldn’t waste their time thinking about you, and if they aren’t thinking good things then why should you want them anyhow? Maybe if you want someone you could find someone who is not cruel and f*cked up to be evil towards you.
I did and I jus hurt them I didn’t mean to but I did I didn’t even want to it’s like I like the emotional pain people bring me it’s like a surprise.
Ik shit is gonna get bad but let’s see how it can happen and how bad it can get till I break me or someone else