ugh i dont get how or why everyone around me has a bunch of friends – i dont get how everyone around me is living their dreams – i dont get how everyone is happy and perfect. im just some weenie girl with a dumbass mind. i have absolutely no one and i cry everynight listening to some angsty music lmao-
i really dont get why or how my parents decided to bring me here anyway; they actually thought bringing some innocent soul to this cruel, unfair ass world will fix their already broken marriage ?.
i try to open up to my mother, she responds wih how “ungrateful” i am for everything and for how hard she works for us. i love her but- all she seems to do at this point is
whine about the responsibility of parenting. i mean, if you really are mad about this- why’d you give birth to me eh?
i’m also desperate for friends. or just even one single friend. someone that listens and understands- someone who’s there for me, not some mean girls who use others for their personal gain and tear other girls down.
everyone seems to just like- sit there and watch people come up to them trying to befriend em. anyone who’s like this is some sorta witch/wizard in my eyes.
i try to be more open with people- i laugh, i ask them questions about themselves- i try to get to know them and they turn me down. always; sometimes indirectly. yikes.
i guess im just unlovable and unlikable after all.
everyone’s sick and tired of me. nobody even cares about me so like
i wish i couldve ended this long ago- i hate to be forced into this world to like suffer smh.
im also “not allowed” to find peace and just end my miserable life. cuz appearently- according to my mom people are gonna spread rumors about me and think im pregnant or sm shit just cuz im a woman. istg this world is so fckin misogynistic it hurts :/
i wish i was dead. i wish i was dead. i wish i wasnt myself at least. i cant love myself- i cant help myself. i wanna end this all but i cant. if i die rn id probably reincarnate to some peasant farmer. *if* i even reincarnate to a human being which’ll already suck
and lastly, if youv managed to read this entire wall of text, thank u for listening. or in this case- reading lmao
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dont think like this everyone has a problem feel free to talk with me i will be ur listener and a guide for u
youre right, even tho im tired of sensing that everyone around me is happy and all,
also, thanks alot for the offer.
Well! Youre just like me. Really desperate for a friend? I am too. Wish we could talk together, if that’s okay. Any way you can contact me?
thanks for reachin out. is there a chance u have discord? it’s one of my favorite social media related apps; maybe we can share usernames and tags lol
sure! t3r3z1pup1tr3#1639
Lets talk some time
I do know a lot of people I don’t have any hard core friends by choice, although i’m friendly, I don’t know anyone living the dream, I know more that are not as happy as me, the people put on a good show but I know better.
Want to share some angsty music with us?
Love your name btw!
sure! sometimes when im havin a breakdown or somethin similiar i like to listen to songs that sound edgy af without paying attention to the lyrics lol; my favorites are “oh ana” – mother mother and “cut my hair” – mounika
if u want some more recommendations maybe u can dm me if thats possible; im new to this site and dont know if thats a feature,
also thanks lol 🙂
‘Cut my hair’ just dragged me away! Now I’m lost in it.
Thanks for sharing.
It’s oddly inline with the dream I woke up too.
Good to know you believe in reincarnation…
I think I’ve just got to finish paying a bit more bills and serve a little more jail time then I’m good to leave. Frankly I would have done this sooner but they started piling bills on me.
Even if reincarnated as a peasant, you’ll have a better life than this one. Maybe..
Well sometimes I wish i was a peasant farmer producing something of real worth. That’d be an upgrade in my case.