Over the years I’ve worked very hard to fix what I thought was causing my problems in life. I’ve moved into better and higher paying jobs, I’ve acquired more money and found better and more comfortable places to live, and I’ve endeavoured to reset my relationships with other people to the point where I limit my interactions with those who do not make me feel good about myself.
However, the problem is always there and never goes away no matter what I do. No matter how much I am able to make my life better, I cannot get rid of the intense feelings of unhappiness and despair that never go away. No matter how much things get better I’ll always find a reason to not feel good, and the fact that my mood doesn’t change irrespective of my success just makes everything feel hopeless.
When I feel like ending my life, it is only because I can’t escape the pain.
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This could have been written by me.. I understand “Exactly” how you feel and what your going thru. I actually came on the site today to say the same and vent. Thanks for sharing, it made me feel a bit better to know I’m not the only one who feels this way.
Sometimes it feels as though no matter how loud we speak there’s no one out there who can hear us. I’m glad you heard what I had to say, and I consider you my friend although we haven’t met.
I hope that if you’re feeling down right now that things will turn around.
Hey Friend, I again can relate 100%. That’s why I come here to share with people who understand and can truly relate.
I’m truly always feeling down on the inside. I just carry on the best I can. I’ve just accepted what I have become.
it’s a Super Dull question i know…
but do You feel it’s, at least, ‘possible\do-able’
that You see ‘how You feel’\your general mood
as an ‘accessory’ thing
like
it’s not in any way the ‘target’ or ‘objective’ You’re trying to reach\achieve
that the logic would be
” I’m staying here in Life because I’m trying my best to do something specific or fulfill a certain purpose
whether or not I feel ‘happy’\’delighted’ while I’m on that path… meh… that doesn’t concern me much
if I experience some positive feelings
cool!
if I don’t And\Or experience only negative ones
no big deal… I couldn’t care less… I got more important things to attend to than my own enjoyment of existence
”
it won’t be a the brightest life-scenario i know : /
but do You think it would be at least
more survivable
than what You’re currently going through?
<3
I really find these types of comments tiresome and condescending, as though I lack the necessary self-awareness and understanding to arrive at these conclusions myself.
Often it’s the people around me who make me realise that I’m not the one who lacks self-awareness.