Every year since around 2020, I’ve genuinely hated growing older, because it means I’m running out of time to be happy, or find my own happiness. I’ve heard Gen Z is in a state of arrested development/Peter Pan syndrome but honestly how could you blame us when the world is currently the way it is? It’s impossible to make any significant milestones because the price of everything makes it impossible. What’s worse is I’ve been clinically depressed with crippling social anxiety ever since I was 12. Which I regret feeling, because life was less awful during those years. I could have spent them playing or learning and growing, but having mental illnesses messed up my chances of enjoying my youth. Sure, I can try to find happiness as long as I’m alive but it would be like finding a needle in a haystack, plus, even if I did, I wouldn’t get back the wasted years of suffering I have felt. It doesn’t help that living with my parents only seems to prolong my suffering, so even on an individual scale, not accounting for world events or societal issues, things continue to feel awful for me.
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I recommend taking a calculated risk. I understand what you mean about college costs, but the flip side is that if you dont better yourself now that its going to precipitate into worse things. When you get sick, you wont be able to afford a doctor or hospital visit. In the dating world, people with an education will have an edge over you.
Dont let fear make your life worse than it has to be. EVERYBODY has those fears about college. Most people take out loans and pay them back gradually after graduating. This doesnt mean that theyll never have money.
Talk to an academic advisor at a community college. Look up their phone number and give them a call. But please, dont choose to do nothing. This is your ONLY life (as far as we can tell)! These decisions impact your entire existence. I suggest calculated risks, acting despite fear. If you need help, help exists.
I guess i care bc im someone who was afraid to go to college. I waited until my mid 30s. When medical issues start popping up, a college degree helps. Trust me. Please.
Every generation has left the world worse off than before, and I think Z is finally the tipping point where you’re inheriting all the bullshit while at the same time realizing it’s too late to do anything. It’s basically like being called in at the last 10 mins of a game when your team is down 100-0.
I dunno man, I guess you could always go down with a fight. The whole Titanic “and the band played on” or Macbeth’s “Lay on Macduff”… maybe there’s some value to that. But other than that, yeah I totally understand the crippling social anxiety, depression and mental health issues that you & your generation is growing up with. And it doesn’t help that your parents (like every generation’s parents) are oblivious to the hell they brought their children into.