Loosing you forever is my scariest thought.

My ex boyfriend still means the world to me, and it troubles me because i know he’s not happy with life, at all. He is always telling me stories about how he just wants the hell out of this place, we have “Fake fought” and i’ve seen the scars all over him, he shot himself last february. February 22nd, thanksfully it wasn’t successful, but i realized that day if i had lost him i would be a complete diaster, i wish i had the power to make him happy, i wish he would change his outlook on life, loosing him is the scariest thing.. i can’t even begin to imagine the day if he would actually do it..