Today’s my birthday. It doesn’t even feel like anything special…my own dad forgot, and as selfish as it sounds, nobody got me anything. I always hated having my birthday so close to christmas, and new years, but this year really sucked. My boyfriends mom has been sick, so he’s been forced into staying at home, and he’s sick too. All in all today SUCKED and doesn’t make my already depressed and slightly suicidal mindset attack my brain any less. All I really wanted was to spend time with the people I’m closest too, and I can’t even get that. 🙁
All the fake bs on fb, the 20something people who don’t even talk to me, posting “happy birthday” don’t even matter, it actually makes me feel worse. Don’t fucking wish me happy birthdeay when you won’t talk to me. And the people that do matter the most, well, didn’t exactly acknowledge it was today.
Its just adding fuel to the fire in my broken heart…
Fuck my life…I don’t care how selfish I sound…I wantd to be appreciated and loved…I mean, its supposed to be a special day right? 🙁
It just seems I have nothing to hope for anymore. But what else is new.
Goodbye, and goodnight. Maybe I won’t wake up in the morning…something I wish for most nights. 🙁
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I feel the exact same way at times like that on my birthdays too, well happy day of birth.
Aw, I’m sorry you’ve had a shitty birthday. I’ve had plenty of those too.
Happy Birthday, fwiw.
And as far as facebook goes, that’s one of the many reasons I deleted mine. I hated the fake bs.
But you know the worst part, I blame myself.
And even though its fake, at least they took the 5 seconds out of their day to say it.
And thanks.
I will extend Happy birthday wishes if you don’t think I’m being disingenuous – sorry you’re feeling blue but times are tough for everyone and sometimes a day is just a day – that the friends who took a minute to acknowledge your birthday on facebook – you may think it’s cheap but sometimes that is all folks have in these times.
all the best – see you in the morning 🙂
dawg
Facebook ruins everything!!!!
@unstable, blame yourself for what?
i know how u feel unstable. my bday is ON christmas. every1 4gets every yr:p
and this yr was worse cuz i was away from every1 i grew up with, and im all alone now with a cold hearted woman who shld b my mother.
Be happi you have ppl in your life tht love u:] try to enjoy the last few hrs of ur bday. be strong, i know u r