Was drunk out of my mind last night…it was another one of my cowardly acts to try and escape reality for a couple of hours.
But I can’t get away from the thought of suicide. In a drunken state I decided to open up to a really good friend, I just dumped everything on her. She is the only person that knows Im suicidal.
I feel so guilty for dumping all my problems on her. She doesn’t deserve it. I didn’t mean to make her cry. I didn’t mean to cry. why was I so heartless?
I’m so stupid!! I don’t want her to feel guilty when I do take my life. She didn’t need to know, but now she does and I don’t know if I lost the only person I thought I could talk to.
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If she still talks to you after you’ve told her this stuff, then you haven’t lost her and maybe, just maybe, you’ve found someone to talk to when you need to. Only time will tell.
I hope things improve for you.
Yeah, I’d say now is the time to go back to her and ask, “can you handle this?” Maybe she’ll surprise you.