I try everyday to understand why nobody cares, if a friend was in pain, I would be there no matter what. I don’t understand i’m not perfect & have made mistakes in my life, but when will I stop being punished. Everything that made me want to wake up every day has been taken from me forever, I think i’m a decent person, I don’t hurt people, when I say your my friend or I love you, I meant it & I would be there for that person but no one is there for me. I am in so much pain, i’m tired of crying every day, i’m hurting so bad I just wish someone cared at all. This pain is overwhelming me and i’m trying to hang on but why I ask myself. So many have let me down and hurt me and just seem to have forgotten all about me or never cared in the first place, it hurts my heart.
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I’m sorry. I hope you find someone who’s as kind as you.
Hi 136… I understand some of what you’re experiencing. Lord knows, I’ve made many mistakes… and I’ve squandered some really good opportunities. I try to have hope… a hope that I can steer away from my past, a hope that I can begin a new chapter, and a hope that what I’m experiencing will become a distant memory. I try to think about how much I’ve already overcome… and I tell myself that, given what I’ve already been through, I can go further. I’ve been through several cycles of friends… They come and go… I understand that life evolves. I remember the good times… and I laugh at some of the pictures that we took during good times. They remind me that life can be enjoyed… and although things are dark now, things can become bright again. Don’t give up… I care about you… and many others here care, too.
I dream of a journey…
I really relate to you and am really sorry that you are going through this. It really sucks to have no one that cares. I’m kind of in the same position… I have people that love me, but they don’t take my problems seriously, or go and blame me/themselves rather than actually caring. I care. And if that sounds lame, I’m sorry, but I really do care. Even though I’m an internet stranger, I do care.