I really don’t where else to write my shit so I’ll write it here.. fuck I just spent the last 10 minutes looking through facebook and my friends’ profiles and shit.. with their proper nice social lives! well my story is I was on medication for 7 years then I came off it.. been 6 months.. in that time my social life kinda collapsed (not entirely somehow coming off meds ups ur hormones.. so u know that department was all good 😉 not to brag really but yeah it was good shit..)
but anyways.. when ur all spaced out.. and weird.. it’s a lot harder to socialize.. cuz ur just not there.. it was alright for a while.. then I did some drugs.. god fkin knows why!! and I spaced out even more and even worse I got really depressed.. I’ve been pretty much hermiting it out for the past 2 weeks and jesus it’s hell! well now.. I’m gonna start slowly.. just go to starbucks and like have some coffee and read a book so I’m used to being around large crowds again (THIS IS ANNOYING!!!!!) ..well.. yeah just venting sharing my story I guess.. leaving to school in a month in the states FAR FAR away from where I am now.. good thing I have some friends there albeit I am not that close with them.. but hey they’re friends.. phew.. I hope it won’t be long before I can have a good time again..
in honesty I should just call my friends and confide and hang out with them again here.. but I dunno I always feel the situations different.. cuz I’m older.. anyways *smacks head* must come off it! alright then..
peace and love take it easy guys, girls.. and gays.. life’s short.. take it easy and party/love more!