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5cent

It feels like it gets better sometimes but then I just think about where I am in my life and what I want and there seems to be such a gap. I’m not without my talents and I’ve got decent enough looks but it seems I cannot connect with anyone in any notable way. My friends around me tell me things, sometimes try to make me feel better, but its like their words are whipping by me in a wind tunnel.

I age and age, and there are less and less places for me to fit in and feel comfortable. I wish I could put it […]

11/16/2013 5 comments

Empty world

by 5cent 10/31/2013

written by 5cent

I sit and stare at nothing. When I’m walking I look at no one. Someone asked me if I was ok because I seemed distant. The fact that they noticed upsets me more than if they hadn’t. I live a humiliating existence and I work towards failure in small, steady increments. I am a lead weight sinking into the ground. I am a horrid, repulsive lizard cooking the sun. I wait and watch as I wither away.

10/31/2013 0 comment

Its all falling down

by 5cent 10/30/2013

written by 5cent

The air around me is heavy these days. A faint mist of despair and dread obscure my vision wherever I walk. I hardly look at people as they pass me by. My footsteps echo in an empty world. I have constant pains in my stomach and I have to force myself to eat. No more sexual drive. No control of my emotions. The slightest thought, if tilted in the wrong direction, sends my ego tumbling to the ground to be shattered and I begin to weep at things no self-respecting person should.

This feeling, this darkness, I can feel it sitting inside me like a lead […]

10/30/2013 2 comments

5cent

5cent

Can’t keep it up

Empty world

Its all falling down