Hey guys, I think I am going to stopposting things for now.. I will be back. But for now I think I am just going to read other peoples posts and comment on other peoples things and try to help them.
If you enjoy reading my posts then just wait a couple weeks and I will be back!
Disappearing for awhile might be a good idea!
Lots of Love to everyone out there! Best wishes!
I love you my dearest sunflower! thank you for coming over today and filming my dailey majestic life!
I am just glad that i finally got to see you and give you your christmas gifts!! hope your day was as good as mine 🙂
i am drunk as fuck.. i will remember everything that happened today… but i am without a doubt drunk.. not really upset or depressed.. just wish my best friend was here…
Sunflower- please know that i love you.. that i REALLY do love you… i really do… your my best friend and you mean alot to me! i just want you to know that!
gahhhhhhh fucking drunk….. but i DO MEAN everything i am saying….
fuckk.. cant type no more dude…
fucking drunkkkkkk
someone get drunkm with me! 😉
I’m stuck here at my dads fiances house for the day to have a Christmas party. It’s just kinda awkward and I have been coming down from smoking earlier this morning. I just want/ need something to do, someone to talk to so I don’t have to sit here awkwardly all day. Really just want to go smoke and come back and eat them go the hell home to watch tv and sleep.
I think i may have fully planned out my suicide if i ever try to kill myself.. ill post it all later.. too tired now, but will tommorow
I will always love you.
I will always be attracted you.
But now I KNOW… that you will never feel the same way back.
And I think I can accept it all now.
This may be a lame epiphony, but if you really knew.. this really is actually a big deal.
Im not happy that we will never be together again… but I understand now what things are going to be like.
Worthless
Pathetic
A sack of shit
Useless
Bitchy
Pyhsco
Stupid
In the way
AÂ burden
I am a person who should die… who shouldnt be allowed to live on this Earth…
No one ever agrees, but no one ever DISagrees either…
then again.. no one ever really listens to me anyway…
I am nothing.
I found out that my ex and his “current” girlfriend broke up last night. my ex told me that he was going to do anything and everything to get her back. I thought to myself.. this could be my chance to get him back.. to make him mine again.. for us to have another chance to be together and be happy. Then i realized how much he cares about her. that he wants to be with her. (she broke up with him for “being too clingy, and not treating her good”) (They also share their 4th block class, which is how they met in the […]
Happy end of the world? Who knows maybe we will all get what we have been hoping for.. Death… Peace
Part of it is rumor, and part of it is true. what we dont know whats what.
Is it wrong that if someone does come in with a gun tomorrow that i want to be shot? and killed?
That way i can die, and everyone will know about it.
I want everyone to know about my death.. my murder.. my suicide..
I dont know why, but i do..
So if you dont hear from me by saturday night, then be sure to check the news about school shootings and any teenage girls that died in it.
(I plan to jump in front of the shooter if i get the chance to..)
Joking about joining in on school shootings so they dont die. You’re all fucked up in the head. Â 20 kids just died because of a schoil shooting and you are all laughing about it.
Bunch of sick fucks
I have no problem helping my friends with their problems, listening to them, being their support system.. but it seems like no one ever tries to help me, listen to me or is my support system. (again i am talking about friends who i am with in person on a daily basis not my SP friends) I am not trying to be needy or anything. But sometimes yes i do need help or someone to listen to me.. but i get tired of listening and helping, if i never get anything in response.
I feel completly shit on and tossed aside.. like my issues means nothing.. […]
UGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
dont feel like actually putting to words right now… will do that later though..
so far just another day… but my bestfriend got mad at me. Told her something that she didnt want to hear, but i had to tell her.. but i didnt say it right. really frustrated and just gonna have to let her do whatever the hell shes going to do and just let her learn on her own..
just feeling alone.. no one to sit and talk to face to face.. i love my SP friends! i really do.. but its not the same as being able to see the person sitting only a few feet away.. to have someone actually hold me as i cry […]
but when i shower, i feel clean physically, but also mentally and emotionally? well for a little while anyways..
its like when i shower and wash off all the sweat and dirt, im also washing off the stress and stuff.
Sometimes when i shower i get more upset, but other times it feels like im temperarily washing off all of my emotion..
why is it that when i accidently cut myself shaving, it hurts 10 times as bad as when i cut myself on purpose?
Okay, well I have friends. I do. I hang out with them sometimes too. but why do i still feel so alone? I call them my bestfriends, which in most cases is true… but at the same time.. they know NOTHING about me. They know the crazy girl.. the one who likes to party, whose had sex, gotten high and gotten drunk.. But the true part of me that matters most.. they dont know exists.. The part of me that cries myself to sleep at night. The part of me that has scars, and cuts. The part of me who almost committed suicide and still […]
Seeing You, I cannot lie… it kills me
IÂ get even more depressed when I see You.
Your beautiful eyes.. dirty blonde hair that always flips to one side..
I think You’re beautiful.. absolutely beautiful..
But that’s what You think about.. Her..
Not me.
Seeing You smile, brightens up my day
yet still the room darkens, since Your smile isn’t towards me.
I hate seeing You, and not being able to talk to You
Hold You
Touch You
Kiss You
and mostly..
Love You.
I can love You from afar.. but it is not the same as when I was loving You upclose..
Seeing You is like a little knife being stabbed in my heart
and several blows to the stomache.
Seeing You […]
If you are here on SP you shouldn’t be acting like a judge mental asshole prick. You shouldn’t be  judging what People here are doing wether it be cutting burning or what ever they do to NOT do those self harming things
so if your going to be a judge mental asshole them you can just leave SP or not comment on anyone’s posts.
either way, keep your asshole words and thoughts to yourself and stop upsetting those who are already upset enough.
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I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut.
I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not […]
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