School Shooting Tomorrow?

@Abselom Yeah, I get it. I think a lot of people would pretend to care if they knew I died, but they don’t care about me on any other day, so I couldn’t see them sincerely caring all of a sudden. I think a lot of people would be happy if I were gone, I feel like an inconvenience to them sometimes, and I definitely know a lot of people would just laugh at the fact I died. In a way, (I know it’s sounds horrible), I’d like some people to feel even a glimpse of my pain, just for some appreciation for once. I’d like to be murdered too, I’d never have any stigma of suicide attached to my death.

@rocketman I didn’t intend to advocate Abselom committing suicide, I don’t try and influence anyone at all, and wasnt it George Carlin who made the joke about a suicidal person with multiple personalities making it a hostage situation for themselves?

@Abselom I get your point. I guess I’d want to die in a way that be seen as sort of honourable, but the problem I think is that suicide isn’t seen as being that honourable by most. I’d like to think I recognise the courage that you’d have to have to do such a thing, and I don’t see it as the easy way out at all.

@rocketman aww, thanks, I can’t see it happening all too soon, but I feel it may be an inevitability one day.

@Abselom Is it good or creepy that we think alike? I have no doubt in my mind that if people cared about me, they would treat me differently now. And that NEVER changes. So I can’t see them EVER caring about me. Even though I hate a lot of people, I’d see no need in dragging them down with me, and that’s all I ever seem to do for some people.

@Abselom Quite frankly, nobody would miss me except if they wanted someone to put down or isolate, that’s all they’d miss about me. Yeah I hate them, but there’s very little I’d want to try and do about it, I just wouldn’t see any point, but perhaps I would seeing as I always screw things up! I don’t hold any positive feelings to them, but I don’t want any negative ones really either.