im tired of being sober all the damn time. I am just bored and nothing fucking helps anymore. I felt better when i was high and i felt like i had a reason to keep going and now the drugs are gone and I don’t have any reason to stay.
agirland_acomputer
i keep messing everything up
Every night i get ready to go to sleep and i get off the phone and stare into the darkness then I just think and think and cry, internally. Then I get on the phone and stay up scrolling on Facebook and Instagram and respond to some unopened snapchats. I changed the song to something I know will make me upset but it’s comforting. I get off the phone finally and close my eyes but then the feeling of emptiness creeps back into my body and the internal tears start again. I cant explain them and that honestly just pisses me off. I have no […]
This is probably my 3rd account since 8th grade and im a JR now. I always end up back here because it’s people who understand and who are honestly supportive. They understand my constant f*cking pain and even my curiosity of what’s beyond “life”. I don’t know how much longer i can take it but whatever