Everything are so simple, until someone disagree with us
Well, whats responsibility, to begin with? Its a shit, a pile of it. As a student, i must attend to school, or else i wont get a better result… Fuck them all, go to hell meet Satan. I didnt fake a sickness, i “stuntman”a sickness… I made myself sick, stomach ache, gastritis, headache… And what do they say to me after meeting doct? LIAR… i told my mom im sick i need to see a doct, whats her reaction? “*giggle*” my goodness whatever. Even having such a pain in my whooooole body, they say school is important… Well then, seems like what they say is “right”, health or life is no longer comparable to school or work. U work to death, ur prob not mine, got muh moneh. Well, this is how is outside now… Now they are fine losing someone close to them than losing an occupation… Its fucked up! Im done im now planning on how to fuck them up now… FBI, or whatever, they all the same… Money, money, money… Work, work, work… U dont say ur health… YOU THINK IM GONNA STAY PUT LIKR THIS!? WORK TILL DEATH!? STUDY TILL DEATH!? WELL ID LIKE TO SEE YOU TRY THAT! CUT OFF UR HANDS AND START WORKING! I TELL YOU EVEN IF IM IN HEAVEN OR IN HELL, I WILL GET THE POWER OF GOD OR DEMON TO DESTROY YOU AND MAKE YOU SUFFER!!!!!!!!!!!! RESPONSIBILITY!!?? I WILL MAKE YOU BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR WORDS!!!
I have learnt a new lesson… Responsibility kills.
Hundreds of peoples commit suicide just because of merely a word used by everyone at their surrounding. Why?
How important is that word ? At school, i didnt pass up just a paper, they all ended up saying i must take the responsibility to pass up that paper which i lost it. They continue the word day after day .What do they want from me ?
Why force me to the corner just for one piece of paper ?Why? Wrath? Or name?
My vengeance is growing day by day ,even though someone tell me to stay positive . I think im addicted to my vengeance, wishing it stronger … Help … My soul is breaking apart … Im fine by disappearing… Help …
Again… I didnt go to school. Third day continuously. Im getting scolded again. Im starting to feel sick now . Stomach ache, vomiting, back paining. Went to somewhere far few days ago, to my sister’s graduation. Got 1 day of school skipping. But didnt go on the next 2 days ,too. I have serious depression, but no one believed . Well ,normal to have depression in this site… Huh? Depressed. Vomited .Now going to GH. Hopefully they write me a letter for skipping school . I felt my lung shrink everytime i wake up on my loud alarm .What is that ?Idk … Maybe death awaits. I just wanna sit at a place and wait for the arrival of my death .This pain is incredible. Not able to smile, not able to cry.
Though ,the wrath grows ,it does not show. What remains, is a cold mask.
I hate this world.
This world is noisy. This world is so bright .This world stinks.
I want a world with no others, only with my family ,my loved ones .
What do the others know ? They know nothing about me .But they kept saying they understand me .Futile ,futil, so futile .
They speak beautiful lies that hurt my heart, and fill their satisfaction .
I hate it. From now on ,i will be all alone. I have my imaginary family. I will have a great pride that overcome all situations .Who do they think they are ?Acting almighty ? Thinking they are educated better? Stating that being mad at is a good thing ?Then HOW .ABOUT . ITS. MY .TURN. TO. TURN .THE .BOARD. I will be all alone! They say they will be helping. But they take things their way! Only filling their satisfaction ,abandoned my feelings! FINE BY ME !I TAKE YOU ON !I WILL ABANDON MY FEELING IF THATS WHAT YOU WANT!
- Everyday, emotions fill up the glass bottle deep within me. This is the bottle to compress my emotions. My mother , she said i couldnt control my emotion . But she doesnt know that ive been controlling it for 10 whole years. The bottle of emotion compression .Filled day by day, filled with despair ,sadness ,sorrow ,hatred. The glass bottle bursted everytime. Sometimes even throwing away the bottle ,leaving an emotionless body . Im an empty bottle .