After one more day in my life, i got a “news”, i went for a walk with some music, with my life going deeper and deeper and i came a across to this.
I dont know if im depressed, all i know is that im empty and hopeless, i hope i dont last that much longer because i find no happiness or goals, in matter fact the news is about why some girl just gave up on me, some1 that ive met in the first day of the year, some1 who could bring some sort of light, she said to her friends that i was empty […]
Im sorry fellows, i dont give a crap about new year or what ever people make up to celebrate, tomorrow is just another day. And yes every new day is the best day to start over.
I never did, i just used to take advantage (of the celebration ) to be with the person that i loved.
But now i really dont care.
But if i could wish something i could choose to get my heart stunned, so stunned that i wouldnt even bother try to talk or meet new friends, girls.. After all i lost all i wanted to be.
It is always an effort, and it feels […]
Hi folks.
Well today ive tried to go for some shopping, looks like i need to buy a suit (new year party thingy), oh sweet, like i said i tried, i went to some shopping, but its so messy, so many people.. I had to give up, it took all my strengh. Than ive tried to go get a coffee in midle of town you know, just wanted to get it and to go near the river to sit in there and cry, yes because this try , sucked all i had, and again, people and traffic everywhere, gave up again.
Here i AM, tired, confused, near […]
And with this now we die
Standing at the edge of the world
Uncertainty calling as the page unfurls
Fortune, heaven or hell
Shedding my body of this mortal shell
Black steel and iron
A lion heart is forged from these bones
Fear not, the discontent you hide
Awake from the slumber and define this time
No fear to pay the price
And with this now we die
Ashes to ashes
The ocean crashes
Louder and louder it cries
Over and over
The sands wash over
Facing, embracing the tides
And with this now we die
And with this now we die
Screaming violence into the void
S.P.I.R.I.T.
Spirit, let’s hear it
S.P.I.R.I.T.
Spirit, let’s hear it
Let’s go!
I’ve had enough
There’s a voice in my head
Says I’m better off dead
But if I sing along
A little fucking louder
To a happy song
I’ll be alright
You want to give up
Gave it all that you’ve got
And it still doesn’t cut
But if you sing along
A little fucking louder
To a happy song
You’ll be just fine cause’
Every now and again we get that feeling
And the great big void inside us opens up
And I really wish that you could help
But my head is like a carousel
And I’m […]
Just going to sleep. But first need to update, about today, very lonely one. I feel bad, its hard to find the future when you cant even see the present.
Theres no words for this.
Anyways, i check the site everyday, and most of posts that i can, most of them i just read because idk what to say for help, im so sorry. But its a fact that if we cannot help ourself its very unlikly that we can help others and i dont like to sell things that i dont buy myself, if u know what i mean.
But i help talking if anyones want to.
Im surfing at internet (sure) looking for any kind of help, but i’m not sure why.. maybe i want help but to tell the truth, i think it’s more about killing time because i really dont believe that i can get helped, theres no words or medication that can change who iam or worse what ive lost.
Cheers
I dont even know if im publishing this, because im too emotional right now, but after a day that i was living ok, i went to do that thing that still makes me feel alive, or used to, not sure anymore, in my way to home i just cried, pain just got me.
Its just very hard to try to keep moving on without any happiness, full of guilty, full of dead love.
Well im just waiting a few days, after what happned to me last week , ill say goodbye to her, to all those things that i still have from her, only memories will remain […]
Just came from work, and im wondering how funny things are you know.
How pointless can we get, how hard it gets when one way that you can get conforted to live is that you know that you can die tomorrow somehow, this is sad, and deep, and it hurts.
How hard is to keep going when you got no proof of nothing , when you know that you can be great or nothing, but the only thing that u are sure is: u failed hard and you lost the light, is not only a loss, is even worst, is part of you, the living part?
And to help […]
Just saying, just got kicked in the teeth. It’s hopeless when you fail and world colapsed, when you find something else that wasnt suppose to be there.
Im sure that we can all get related to this song.
PS: hope that i will find some fans around, if you are one of them, than talk to me :))
Hi there. I just want to share my story. I’m kind new around, i’m from Portugal.
Well all my life i have been very negative, in my concept, i call it, realistic. Why do people think positive? do they want to get hitted hard in face when things fall? Anways its just my thing i guess, and im very hard person to motivate, i watch everyone, and they all got a dream, they want to be someone, and have some carrer. The thing is that i never dreamed or wanted to be something, all i asked at my teenager age was someone to connect, guess what, i […]
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