I miss her daily. Not sure why I keep checking up on this account. It helps me a little but I just want her back.
This was my best friend’s account. She took her own life back in June. I recovered it while going through search history. This will probably be the only post I make on her account, but I need to say something.
why? Just why? What makes a person want to commit suicide? I need answers. This has weighed on me since the funeral and I need closure.
I’m ending my life tonight. I don’t want to talk about my story or leave anything behind. I just want to go since there’s no hope of getting better. As an atheist I don’t want to cease to exist, but there’s no other option if I want to escape a lifetime of chronic pain. Despite the fear I have I’m also feeling relieved knowing that it’s almost over.
I was doing great for about a year. Started seeking PTSD treatments but unfortunately not a lot can be done at this point. So I’m taking my life tonight.
I tried my hardest and had a good run. See you in hell.
Good luck to everyone else on here. Live like I couldn’t.
I’m out. 🙂
I’m nearing my end and I have so few words to say. After all these years of dealing with PTSD from my first suicide attempt,borderline personality disorder and various other illnesses that have earned me the humiliating title of “insane”. After years of humiliation and abuse for being the gay goth chick, being turned down for every job, and being shat upon at every turn. After relapsing over and over again and after losing most of the quality of my life, I’ve decided to take my own life and put an end to the misery that probably won’t get better. It’s taken a lot of […]
I’ve been trying not to talk about my personal life, but my therapy appointment kind of devastated me this morning and I need to talk somewhere. The counselor said that hospitalization might be a good idea, but the devastating part is that this is one of my “good days”. If a professional thinks that an average day in my life is “worthy of hospitalization”, then it’s fair to question my overall well being.
I feel as if I’m on death’s doorstep right now…
I’ve been on this site before and took a pretty long break. A lot of stuff has happened, but I’ve decided to probably end my life sometime today. I’ve been suffering from severe depression since I was twelve and have had suicidal thoughts every day since then. I’ve tried to live for others but I don’t have a will to live anymore. I tried to die multiple other times as a child and carried the pain around me for a long time, no treatments have worked and it hurts to wake up everyday so I’m going to finally liberate myself through death. If you want […]
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I’ve been suffering from depression since I was 12 and the past 7 years have been nothing but hell emotionally. I’ve tried to seek help over and over again but no answers. I’ve been on too many medications to name, have attempted suicide a few times before (my first attempt traumatized me with nightmares, anger, and hatred for years). I know life gets better supposedly, but I have no ability to get help anymore because of money and insurance, plus I live in a conservative area where someone like me living an alternative lifestyle can’t find a job and can’t get many opportunities. Because of […]