I think I should say this off record.
Dear Destiny.
You are the best thing to happen to my life.
You are the only reason I decided to live past that year.
You despise me now.
But you will be in my heart.
Forever.
I love you.
Still alive. A couple more days to make my choice. I’m calm now. I can cope with my anger. I just wanted a friend. I can just put on my happy face now, that’s normal. I sit in bed. In my small 2-bedroom apartment and I just can’t sleep. I just think about how lonely I am, how everyone around me glows with self-indulgent happiness. I just want to make them suffer sometimes. But that wouldn’t be fair at all. My life sucks, they know it, and it’s not their problem. Death is my choice this month. Next month I decide. Wonder what happens when […]
I care. I care for so many people. But all I’ll get is a fucking dick response no matter what. It isnt easy to wake up with no one giving a fuck about your tommorow, yet I put on a damn smiley fface for everyone, I’m just an accessory to everyone’s ego. Well I’m fucking sick of it. I try so hard to be a kind person but I just get it spat in my face. Even my mom ignores me for that boyfriend. I see her 2 hours a week cause she decided to move in and not tell him about me, and I […]