Okay so we have broke up its been a week and a bit and did we just spend the night together? you in my arms, feeling your heartbeat on my chest stroking your cheek, your neck, you. Why do I let this happen to us? I don’t know how you feel but I feel nothing just frozen in place remembering how we kissed and how soft your face was. I need to know was there any feeling? I DON’T EVEN KNOW ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is my 3 rd time on this site. I look back at my posts and they are about my ex.
You broke my heart and I hadn’t wept any tears just feeling, movement and thoughts. Today I finally cried it had emotion, pain and anger the 3 things you need for a successful cry. You broke my heart and the worst thing is, is how we still talk after all that. My hand is still broken, the pain of the tear in my skin or is it the bulge I have on my middle fingers knuckle? No I didn’t hit her. I walked away and […]
OK so its been a few days now since me and “Jess” have broken up. We still talk which is a little unusual it has been made clear to me by her that we are not getting “back together”. Me and her broke up on a Thursday she couldn’t even explain it properly which was a bit up setting but she text me as I was “trying” to delete the pictures I have of us together on my phone and it said ” Ryan can we meet up so I can explain myself x” so I text back saying “Fine” I was worried but it […]
The Break Up
I can see the text now “Ryan we need to talk” that’s how it always starts. This is the 3rd time she’s said this to me. Never has it come to anything but I can see this being it. As of right now my heart is pounding and I am sitting on my bed worrying, shivering, thinking, pleading. Why can’t my heart stop? just stop god damn it. I am 17 and I am truly and excuse my language “fucked” right now I have no friends and I mean that I am not just saying that for sympathy. I have had to repeat […]