The Break Up
I can see the text now “Ryan we need to talk” that’s how it always starts. This is the 3rd time she’s said this to me. Never has it come to anything but I can see this being it. As of right now my heart is pounding and I am sitting on my bed worrying, shivering, thinking, pleading. Why can’t my heart stop? just stop god damn it. I am 17 and I am truly and excuse my language “fucked” right now I have no friends and I mean that I am not just saying that for sympathy. I have had to repeat my last year at school I have spent all my life getting bullied by teachers, family, friends even people I have just met. I see a councillor and even she’s terrible. I can’t sleep I am just waiting to see what she (Jess) says tomorrow will it be a “break up”? if it is I promise my self I will leave it a week and see what people on this sight say if any of it is worth while I won’t end what I haven’t got or what I “could have.”
~Ryan~
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Forget what everyone around you thinks about you. who gives a shit about them.you are young and can do and be many things,you have big life ahead of you and you can be happy.people around you must not affect you only you yourself can affect you.that is how it should be try not to make bad choices and be best at what you do.I know I might sound hipocrit by saying this but you are young and you can learn to love and respect yourself.don’t see yourself by their eyes trust me you are more than that,better than that.
I’m sorry you’re alone and have been bullied all your life, Ryan.
*hug*
Life is pretty fucked
It hurts my heart to hear that you’ve been bullied for your entire school career. I’m a teacher, and I’ve seen how awful both kids & adults can be. I truly hope you wait it out & see what’s to come. I know if you were one of my kids (my students are my kids, always have been, always will be) it’d break my heart to know how much you’re hurting & I’d want to help you. Is there anyone in your school you can trust? If not, while you may not believe it, you can trust me. If you need to/want to chat, my email is kelleeirene@Yahoo.com