For those of us who lost people to suicide, I made a group on Facebook. You are more than welcomed to join. I try to remember what my cousin was like and what he did while alive. This group has helped me, especially since it is a part of me now.
http://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=675178246&_rdr#!/home.php?sk=group_180906338629104&__user=874090240