I don’t know where else to go. I don’t know who to trust at this point. What if you trust two people but they seem to be telling different points of view about something that has happened but it doesn’t connect with each other? How will you know who’s lying? How will you know who to trust when all of them has lied to you at some point in your life? I feel like I’m losing my mind.
What’s your standards of a perfect day? Is it the thought of a sunny afternoon but the breeze is cold and calm? Is it when you get to enjoy that day with the people whom you treasure most? Or is it just you and your solitude quietly aweing in everything that’s around you that would be considered as the things that you like?
In my life all I ever wanted was one good day. A day where I wouldn’t have to think so much about what happens next. I could be happy within this minute and feel completely different in the next. I prevent myself from […]
Do you ever get tired of trying to explain your side of the story? The why that why this. I’m tired of trying to get my point across because I feel like it doesn’t even matter anymore. I’ll only dig a deeper hole into my grave. I’m tired of trying to explain myself whenever I get misinterpreted. Whenever someone misunderstand my point. It got to a stage where I’am physically, emotionally and mentally tired of what’s happening. Everything’s falling apart and me trying to speak out only makes the destruction go faster. It’s like calming a tornado. My chest hurts and tightens every […]
An open letter.
I miss you.
I know you probably won’t see this. I know we’re over. I know there’s no more pieces left for me to pick up. I never got to say these words but here I’am now.
This is for you. This is for the unsaid feelings that I’ve left behind along with the memory of you.
You don’t deserve someone who breaks your heart every now and then. I could’ve been better. We could’ve been more. We could’ve. But we chose not to. I’ve had my reasons and you’ve had yours. I’m sorry. For the times that things were […]
A state of mind.
A collapsing truth
Feelings intangible
Freezing hands
Could not stop her
From the fiery pit
Called life
And it called her
Through her grays.
How will you know who to trust? How will you know that the people who cares for you truly does? What if they’re just using you? And what if you can’t do anything about it because they’re the only ones left in your life? I don’t know where to run. Who to talk to because I see through some of them sometimes and its scary. Maybe I’m just overthinking. Maybe I’m just losing my mind. Maybe.
I don’t know what to do everytime I fuck things up. I consider the consequences of my actions plainly collateral damage. Something that wasn’t supposed to go that way but it did. Now everything’s more of a mess. Now I’m wondering if maybe I’am the collateral damage. An unintended by-product of society.
Broken pieces within.
Shards that I let in.
Fragments were too thin.
Yet they peel my skin.
Does it ever feel like you live in a house full of strangers? However, the outside world is as clueless too. Every bit of you that they’re supposed to know are the little truths they don’t.
An empty space. A canvas of clear paint. That’s what my mind is right now. So, hello? To anyone that might be out there. I don’t really know how I ended up here. Again. After 2 years? But then I guess I kept falling. Down, down, down the rabbit hole.