I’m leaving for a job interview in an hour. Hoping I get employed. If I found a job again I wouldn’t feel so useless. It’ll give me a purpose to get up every day again.
I need to try and sleep. I will return tomorrow evening. I look forward to messaging everyone again, new faces and old.
I hope everyone has a better night/morning than their last.
I can’t sleep once again. It’s been like this for a while. I just can’t seem to fall asleep. Staying asleep has just started to become a struggle. There is so much negativity in my life right and and all I’m able to do is sit here and watch. Rocketman, you are my official SP buddy. I’d like to speak with you, I found myself needing to come back here once again.
I’m still here. And I’m still struggling. I’ve been struggling in the background. Amd it’s time to speak once again. Hello SP.
It’s my birthday today. And I’m more likely at work, or sleeping for my birthday. I’m 22 today. I made It another year guys. Yay.. I might drink tonight and make an appearance on SP. So I appoligize in advance. What else am I going to do on my birthday? At least I technically won’t be alone on my birthday if I come here.
It was my birthday last night and I think I was one drink away from alcohol poisoning.
I hope you three held up this long. You three were in my mind the most. Let me know how you have been, if you are able to view this. I miss you guys and I bet we all have much to share.
I’m still alive and kicking. How about you?
I’m sorry I haven’t been here for a month. I wont get into detail.
But I’ve though a lot and it’s gotten me this far.
I miss sp though, I miss everyone here. I’ve been working a lot, and drinking. It’s been depressing me. And not to mention it’s that time of year again for my depression to settel in. My birthday is in a few days, january 11th. And I’m not looking forward to it.
I was depressed this week, I still am. But I hide it very well from the real world. I all usually winds up at the end of the night that I despise […]
I’m moving to europe.
https://youtu.be/3uyj-ZV1xik
There’s parts in this where I forgot to think before I spoke. It happens. I corrected myself though.
https://youtu.be/lmB2dJDPQtQ
First of all I’m sorry I talked quietly. And it’s hard to hear. I had my heater on and it distorted the video which didn’t help. I’ll make it more clear to hear me with my next video.
I’m going to start video logs once a day at the most. Just want to let you know they’ll improve over time. I’m sorry my videos are not that great and I find myself all over the place when I speak. I struggle with a stutter and I don’t speak clearly. I have a speach impediment as well. I’m a very quiet person also. […]
https://youtu.be/J9hnNkx5rt4
I saw one of my exs a little bit ago. At the bar we ust to work together at. He’s the one who punched me in the face one night. It doesn’t matter why he did. All these emotions came rushing back. Fuck. I’m overwhelmed. Depression settles again, it was a good past few hours. And it came to an end quickly once again. I want to go home.
October rain this is especially for you.
I would like to share with every person on SP, the people to come, the people who have been.
Every single one of you, no matter who you are. What you’ve done. What you’ve been through. What you look like. What you think of yourself. Anything. You are all unique. You are all stunning, breath taking works of art.
And if you are reading this. Individually as a person. Yes you, and only you, no one else but you is my focous right now. (10 people could read this but the focous is individully on a single person at a single moment for each of you.) You made […]
I’ll miss this place. My family is here. I miss working here. I’ll miss everyone.
(This is a long post, someone please read.)
My name is Brii. I am 21 years old. My birthday is January 11th. I’m a beauty advisor, and I ust to work at the most popular sucessful bar in town not that long ago. I live in a smaller town in Iowa. There’s not much to do here. Everyone knows everyone here, they all know who you are and what you are before even meeting you. There are good people here, but it’s very lonely no […]
It’s the first time I’ve been outside in a few days.