Thank you for sharing that song last night. I’ve been stuck in my room watching the rose my mother gave me yesterday bloom. I finally fell asleep as the first petal began to drop. It was almost 3 days without sleep.
I’ve been up an down all day posting on this fourm. Im glad I found it today. I’ve been all over the spectrum. But the more I read what everyone else is writing, the more I want to stay. Stay here, here on suicide project, with everyone I will never know. Because it feels oddly like home here.
So I ask, please take time to listen to this song. It is depressing, so fair warning. But this song has always gotten me through the day. It has always helped me clear my mind. I can relate to this song. This song is me, this song is […]
Im sitting in the back room at the bar I ust to work at. Waiting for my friend to have free time from the tables shes serving. My heart is racing in the pit of my stomach. I want to vomit. My head hurts. Im crying and I dont know what to do anymore. I need help.
I have a friend today. And that’s all that matters to me in this moment. Im so scared. I just want an escape. I just want a friend to hold me. I just want someone to be there for me. I just want closure.
I’m laying in bed on the verge of saying fuck it and shutting it all down. The hardest part is actually finding the perfect method.. At this point im completely calm and collected, I just want it to be as painless as possible. I’ve actually died once before for a few seconds. And remained in intensive care and on suicide watch after attempting an overdose. But from past experiences, over dose hasn’t actually worked. Sadly its my go to method, mostly because I either dont have resources for other methods, or it seems too painful. I just want to go as peacfully as I can.
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