Feeling the choking effect of too much stress today!! Not good for my anxiety issues at all!!! Broox dad is suddenly wanting visitation rights with him after 2 years!! He’s hasn’t held him since the day he was born and suddenly he deserves every other weeked? My answer to that is fuck you!! Why should he be allowed to walk back into his life whenever he wants?? It wasn’t fair to Broox when he walked out on im and it’s fair to Broox to let him walk in and out like that all the time!! I’m terrified that his family will try and take take […]
Just returned from my first appointment with my therapist! They said I have a severe anxiety disorder! New meds and weekly visits! Let’s see if this helps **fingers crossed**
– Layne
We all get discouraged when life slaps us in the face!!! I just want you to kw that I think u r amazing!!! You are always full of encouragement and kind words and every time I talk to you I feel better about myself because you are always always always doing your best to make me feel good and lift me up!!! Your a good person and it’s sad but people take advantage of that!!!! Keep that beautiful head of yours up!!!! Love you!!!!
-Layne
Depression is very common in my family! In fact almost everyone on my mothers side suffers from some form of depression or mental illness. As I sit watching my happy and very silly baby boy run around the yard I am plagued with the crippling fear of passing on my depression to him. I can’t bear the thought of one day Broox wanting to take his own life or harming himself in any way. I wish there was a way I could scoop him up and hide him away so he is always this happy, silly, giggly care free beautiful boy that he is right […]
As I sit here reading all of the post about this beautiful girl who took her own life my heart is breaking. It is true that none of us know how much our death will effect other people! Recently I struggled with the thought of ending my life and I am so glad that I didn’t! My heart aches for her family and friends and all those here that knew and had grown to care about her deeply! Kallie I hope you finally found peace! I wish that something could have been done for you!
I also hope all of you that are hurting can find […]
It’s haunting me
The person you believe
I could be
I’ll only weigh you down
I’m paralized
Laying stuck to the ground
What if the night gets too long
Are you still sure mornings ever going to come
I don’t wanna trap you while
I’m escaping me
As you can tell by my new post I didn’t hang myself!! I went and talked to my aunt and she is going to help out. My son and I will be moving into her garage apartment this weekend which is a huge help because she is only going to charge me $200 a month for rent and food! She called her church and tonight I got a huge bag of clothes for Broox!!! Little man is styling in his new batman pjs as we speak.
As I’m writing this Broox is laying beside me sleeping with his little legs thrown over onto mine and I […]
Elayna Isabel Carter “Layne” will be laid to rest today after 17 years of misery on this earth
Layne is remembered by those who knew her as a pathetic excuse for a human and a waste of oxygen. She was the unwanted youngest child of Phillip and Collete  and the stupid annoying kid sister of Matthew and Kristin.
Layne hung herself in her room leaving her family and so-called friends overjoyed that the emo psycho was finally dead and gone. You see Layne was a failure and a drain on society. She got knocked up at 14 and failed miserably at being a mother to her son […]