How many of you would actually care if I died, and if you did, for how long? I mean if I died the sun would still rise and set, the seasons would still change, my death would change nothing in the world. I’m nothing special, so why do you care what happens to me? My existence is meaningless, so therefore I believe that I do not need to stay. I mean, do you even know what it’s like to feel so damn sad and empty all the time and just wake up everyday to just fake a smile and pretend to be oh so very […]
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Red Clåwß°§
Red Clåwß°§
Well, I'm 18 years old I'm suicidal and I cut and I've been suffering with clinical depression for as long as I can remember. Even though I'm on antidepressants, my depression just keeps coming back, twice as worse might I add; and what makes it worse is that it is a chemical imbalance in my brain and I'm pretty sure there is no cure for that. I've always thought about killing myself but for some reason I haven't; maybe I'm trying to find something worth living for. I'm pretty damn sure that I'll never find that reason because I just keep sinking deeper and deeper into despair. I feel like no one even tries to consider how I feel. I just feel like a bother to everyone because ever since they found out how serious I was about killing myself, they have never looked at me the same way and do you know how that feels. It just makes it so much harder to just deal with life. I don't really plan on sticking around for much longer though.