Broken Dreams

I haven’t posted in awile as i don’t like bothering people about my proplems but if I could get any advis i would greatly aperachate it.My “down fall” of this year and my recent mental breakdowns have made me result to an almost errrie feeling i used to have when thouse thoughts enter your head.You know the one’s that weigh you down and the one’s they clame antidepressents can help with but even i myself amit i’am no role moddle for having a 215 medical marajuanna for my depression and isomia.

I guess i’ll start with October 27th of last year becouse that’s when I first […]

I’m not sure what to call this.

I’ve been thinking about my life and everything that’s happended since I last posted.

I’ll go back to December 12 2012 last year when I was on youtube watching old video game commericals due to shear boardom 45 miniouts beforer I had to go to work(I work the late night shift) as I’m asuming the tragicty took place.My mother said she heard a gunshot the outher night but,thought somthing fell or nabors on or lert side shot off some firework(s).(They seem to do weird things like that somtimes but,I’m sure I’m no different).Anyways,as I was heading out to work with […]

Dose anybody know if theirs a mental disorter where your mind is running at 100 miles per hour?

When I’m alone my thoughts seem to speed up.I don’t hear “voices” but I’m ussuly cought up in “Fame” if I ever became famious or on certion people in my life.For example,Comic book writeing,how my mother’s job working out for her,Playing the guitar,(or at least a poor exicuse of doing so),work,upcoming jury duity,w2 forms,back to work.I don’t want to be self-centered of anything becouse my psyc said their wasen’t anythink wrong with me but I wanna be sure.I can understad if no body wants to talk.

It’s been a few months since I posted anything of commented on this website.I think in my last post I was going to go on how I got to be suicidal and when I was going to kill myself but,It seems that my life has taken a 180 turn around.I know that nobody here propley remembers me on this website and if not I’m ok with it.I origanally joined this website to help people out throught their strugles in life and battles with depression however,I was the one who needed help.My proplem was that I coulden’t let go of the countless years of school bulliying […]

I promised I would tell my life story a few weeks ago.I feel like such a lier by not doing it when I said I would…..

I have to divide my life story into parts becouse there so much I have to say and so little time to put it all down.This story is also diffucult to put down becouse I feel like I’m to self-centerd.It seems like I only care about myself and nobody eles wich might explain why I’m alone most of the time in my life.For example,if your around sombody who only talks about “Me,me,me,I,I,I, “Well I myself” ect. Nobody wants to hand […]

In just a few days I’m going to publish my Life’s story of how I got this way.

This will be the first time I ever tell anybody about my personal life and feel that sombody should know about my life before I die.(Wich might be years or weeks from now).Theirs many ways I could kill myself as I personally know I could kill myself with anything..and I do mean anything.I have varry creative ways I could kill myself but,i feel I should still live for some unknown reason in this world and that will also be reviled.I might break into pices(such as PART 1 or […]

Hello,

I’m not sure if anybody rembers me or not becouse I only posted a few posts and I don’t log on varry often.

Regardless of the fact,I know that this world is better off with out me but,before my time comes I want to tell me story.I know that their might be people on this site who won’t read my life’s story but to me that dosen’t matter just as long as I have sombody to respond.It could be a “hello” or a “hi” I just want to have at least one friend in this world and I’m sick of always being alone.The outher day I […]

I don’t know why I typeing this here right now or why I contuine to live in this world.

Their was once a user on this site named “mychoice” who taught me personally some amazing things.If any body cheaks this site I’m sure you’ll find a few posts by him.He had this one about money being the root of evil and how we as people want to enjoy this world but have to pay ticket sales just to do anything.As time past I begin to learn from him and left a few comments on his posts and eventully I think I angered him.The last post he […]

My familys gone off to see the pariade down town and I still here becouse i slept after worling an extra late shift.As I sit here I see a pizza cutter and other knifes.I wonder why I am even alive.All I do is work and live on my broken dreams.I don’t date.No friends.An untrusting family.no LIFE.I could it it right now however,i coulden’t die now.My boss wants and is expecting my to be at work.I might cut myself.At least I could do that right.All I have to do is say.”I got it at work””I hit my arm on a nail,blackberry bush,”ect.”My cat scrached me when […]