Does anyone else ever get something happen and then bamn the feelings where they cry and they then feel so numb that they cannot even move. The way the tears soak up dry then you’re felt with the feeling of not exisiting, the sick feeling in your stomach as the pain gets worse, the way all the bad thoughts come crawling back into your mind into your brain and take over your whole day. How it consumes you so much that it’s all you are thinking about throughout the day. Throat gets dry and sore where you want to talk about it but you simply […]
so I haven’t been on here in a while so I thought it was a good thing but you people on here always help out when I post something and reading the comments you place really help me a lot to help myself.
I have been getting bullied a lot I dunno why. I have been getting called fat so I started going to the gym a few months ago I thought twas improving my appearance til some people at my college started taunting me calling me fat and ugly. You see I have a twin and she has always been the one people idolize over. […]
Suicidal thoughts again, cluster headaches, crying, urges to cut myself :‘( I’m feeling numb I dunno what to think or do I keep pushing people away my head is fucked up :‘( I’m fucked up I hate myself so much I’m a fucking fat worthless piece of nothing… I guess my bestfriends lied because they left me… when they said they wouldn’t I just want to hit my head off the wall and pull my hair out I have been sick I dunno what to fucking do it’s slowly killing me and no one I know stays enough to help me .. they get scared […]
I lied to my parents about having suicidal thoughts and carrying on self harming. Should I come clean because they are getting worse I keep taking pills and cutting and I feel its going to get worse. Should I go doctors? Or maybe counseling? I dunno what to do I feel myself fading away everyday a bit more :‘( I haven’t been able to speak to anyone 🙁 I’m going into a deeper depression and no one is caring about it 🙁 I feel like one day everyone will care when it is too late :‘(
I went to doctors yesterday and have gota mild eating disorder because I have a fear of gaining weight 🙁 it’s kinda hard cause I also have depression and get a lot of thoughts and everyday is hard. Social worker contacted me yesterday saying if I was safe and I feel the doctor has told them stuff I told them all my levels of trust have gone 🙁 I feel major down and I’m in pain a lot with my back and have cluster headaches a lot too I am also anemic so I bruise easily and I’m quite pale. I have about two friends […]
Hey I’ve decided the plan of killing myself on the 25th is not going ahead. In my other post I talked a lot about a guy who I lost only to find out that he got with another girl 2 days after we broke up.. I was sad about it and it made me think that he couldn’t of loved me that much :/ it would of been a year I was with him but hes moved on and I’m kinda happy for him because hes happy.. I have this guy friend who’s like my bestfriend he has been there for me a lot through […]
I dunno why I was even born cause I have no purpose on this world. I used to think life could get better for people who are unhappy but for me it doesn’t work like that. I wrecked the one good thing I have ever had in my whole life and now I’ve lost them for good they want nothing to do with me anymore cause I let him down so many times. I feel like I have no one now because I only spoke to him about everything everyday I’d talk to him and now he’s not wanting me in his life anymore 🙁 […]