so I haven’t been on here in a while so I thought it was a good thing but you people on here always help out when I post something and reading the comments you place really help me a lot to help myself.
I have been getting bullied a lot I dunno why. I have been getting called fat so I started going to the gym a few months ago I thought twas improving my appearance til some people at my college started taunting me calling me fat and ugly. You see I have a twin and she has always been the one people idolize over. Everyone calls her the pretty twin while I am just Yano there. I dont really think I have a purpose. I left college because it got bad I lost people who I thought was friends and they blocked and removed me off every socialmedia site and my number so I couldn’t contact them. I feel so alone.
I have been alone for a while I get left in the house by myself for most the time and people dont seems to notice that I’m hurting. I haven’t cut but I’ve wanted to sooo much. I have just been getting angry at myself and i have pinching and picking and I never noticed before but I pull at my hair on my eyelashes and eyebrows. I have a few bald patches on them. I have my relapses of my bulimia. My skin is getting dry and sore. My body is aching I never want to go out anymore. I get headaches and feelings ofwanting to die and end it all.
I literally have no one I have no friends nothing. I feel like nothing. No one wants me around. Like my mom said I am the runt of the ffamily.
Its sad to think that I thought my life could get Bette but it hasn’t its gotten completely worse and I dunno what I will do or how long I’m going to last :‘(
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Hey, i understand your pain, in going through similar problems like; People having something bad to say about my appearance calling me a sissy because i look feminine, i lost friends aswell.
I hope you never let the people get to you too much. Like Pink would sing; Pretty pretty pleasee!! Dont you ever ever feel!! Like your less than…fucking perfect ! I want you to believe that and not stop believing ! It may be awkward at first but put yourself out there and make some new friends. You deserve to be around others that lift you up, and not put you down…
Love Funanya <3
Thanks for understanding me. And I have heard that song before 🙂 its one of my favourites. Thanks for your advice it means so much to me
I used to get bullied a lot in school ugh it was horrible….. School does end though and life does get better. The funny thing is I’m 28 now and see some of the people who used to bully me and man do they look terrible . I have a beautiful family now and a handsome husband. Don’t ever let any human being hurt your self worth just ignore the words because at the end of the day your beautiful in your own way . I used to let it get to me a lot and now that I look back on it the depression wasn’t worth it these kids who are bullying you have their own self hatred that they spew onto everyone else. Ignore them and make your own beautiful life story ….. Sincerely Nicole
Thank you for your advice. You are like an inspiration, I’m happy for you to have such an amazing family. You seem like an among person
Your mum called you the runt of the family? Jeepers creepers, that is awful. My mother once told me that I am a jynx (that’s like a curse) on the family and always had been. It isn’t true. Get on tumblr and follow the eating disorder recovery blogs and body positivity blogs. So many of us are struggling with those things. It is the only thing helping me with my eating disorder and body image problems right now. I have a skinny, pretty sister too. I also have a very high achieving sister. I no longer compare myself to them. I am my own person, worthy in my own right.
You’re right. We are our own person. It means a lot to have someone understand what someone is going through. Thank you for your advice
You know I kinda was down the same path. But I did 180 and moved to new spot. Stopped talking to negative people and joined some dating sites. I didn’t join to date new people. It opens doors to different people and some I’m friends with today. My point is I did a total restart. And that includes family also because let me tell ya that family can be more pain in the ass than anybody. Hope this helps.