Okay you guys so today was my like last day of school and it actually went pretty well. Â I’m doing alot better this semester then i was last semester. I’m trying REALLY hard to actually do good.. I’m working on my attitude and how angry i get. And I’ve started to write in a journal it really does help if you right things down instead and then go back and read them later. Also i count backwards starting at 10 i know alot of people do that well it works for me lol to calm me down sometimes plus i have a stress ball. I […]
Have A Good Day you guys! and Remember to keep your head up!
first i want born. Then i started to grow. My parents spilt up before i was born. But my mother got remarried so i had always thought this man was my father until i was about 8 yrs old. Then i finally got to meet my real father. Little did i know my mother had gotten into some pretty hardcore drugs with the man i used to call my father. Finally they got dovorced that’s her 2nd divorce btw and she went completely crazy and shaved her head. me and my 2 sisters stayed with my grandmother while my mother went crazy i can still […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptzzU7jFQwo This Song really helps me.
She looks in the mirror stroking her hair
trying to cover the bruises as if they weren’t there
her locks of gold so beautiful
used to shine so bright
but her light slowly faded
into the dark sacred night
the bubble of  happiness
finally popped
she was broken beyond repair
constantly gagging needing more air
unable to survive all she does is cry
left alone in the world
who would care if  she died
I don’t understand the person i have become anymore. I used to be so nice and so full of nothing but happiness. Now i just cry myself to sleep. Maybe it’s because my father died this September of a tragic accident. But i don’t think that’s it completely. I feel so pushed away i have 2 sisters and they’re so perfect they all always have straight A’s…and then there is me… with F’s and D’s. I have so much anger and hurt on the inside i just want to scream HELP ME. but of course no one is there… I’m trying so hard not to break. I […]