I have a reason to stay alive. I know nobody cares but for so long I barely lived with any reason but now I found him. He brings me pure happiness. For the first time I have a smile that is really mine. Behind closed eyelids no longer am I haunted with nightmares and worry but peace and knowing when I wake up he will be there right beside me. When I feel his warmth the coldness in my heart melts away and I am left feeling such strong love that it keeps my thoughts so far away and I can actually live. I am […]
I’m lost I can’t even keep a steady thought. My meds failed me I was so much worse. I’m unappreciated and I am so through with my duties in life. My responsibility isn’t even a reality for people. Why must I burden myself with the heavy hearts of everyone around me. I make there issues my own because they mean more than my own life. Now I want to just take mine and leave it at that. I don’t even want to move anymore everything sets me off. I’m beginning to feel the end is near I’ve been going strong for so long. I don’t […]
The pain is overwhelming
It has taken up my soul
All I ever think about is “will I lose controlâ€
The feeling of being lonely
The thoughts of pure despair
I think I am broken far beyond repair
The beast inside my head has grown considerably
Feeding me all these thoughts
Giving me false dreams
I don’t understand why this happens
I’m nearly ready to just give in
I want to give my soul to the and commit that final sin
I’m asked if everything’s alright
Of course I smile and lie
But whenever I’m alone I feel ready to die
I cover up my […]