I haven’t used this site for 2 years. It feels weird to be back here after everything. I’m surprised I’m still here, I’m proud I’m still here. I’ve missed having a place to vent. I finally finished school, I never thought I would. I made it. I cant believe I did it. It feels weird to reread my previous posts. I wasn’t in a good place. My life has fluctuated a lot. Right now its okay, I keep making bad choices, I seem to be unable to stop myself.
After all this time,I’m back. I decided to stop using the site for a while,get some breathe,turns out I’m back into that dark whole. I’m worse than before. I hate myself more. I’ve become this person who when I look in the mirror I feel sick. I’ve become this weak person who cannot stick up for themselves. I just do what’s best for everyone else and what makes them happy,no one sees I’m broken inside,no one sees or let alone cares. I started cutting again and they’ve got deeper more of,and some people notice and ask,I give a petty excuse and they believe […]
My email is always open to anyone to needs to talk about anything:
Self harm
Depression
Suicide
Or just need a friend 🙂
Selseyc@gmail.com
It makes me sad to think more than a year ago I wrote my suicide note. I’ve been looking through my old diaries and posts and realised something,i’ve never really been happy in life. Even my diaries from my childhood I was writing about how sad I was. This past year has taught me a lot about myself and the world. I guess I never really had a chance in llife to start with. I grew up with a mother who constantly lies,use to be in a mental home and is horrible. MY dad is the only person I can rely on for the truth,but […]
I haven’t gone to school recently and everyone thinks it’s becasue I’m ill yes I’m ill just not sick my depression is starting to gy the better of me and I can’t even focus at school and yesterday my friends were talking about self harm and depression and stuff an I got angry becasue thy thought they knew it all and I said You don’t know what depression is like unless you have been through it an I don’t want to talk to anyone and people on this site are making it worse they think they know better but they don’t ! I feel so […]
I DONT GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE. I am done with everyone! Some people are so fucking hypocritical. Take my “best friend”. Apparently for example. She is a slut. If I did half the things she did she would be all bitchy but no. If she does it it’s ok. I’m sick of being played around so hurt innocent people becasue of it. I used to be so happy. Now I  can’t fucking take it. I do stuff even I cant explain and there’s no one here to help. Everyone has their own life to deal with but I can’t deal any longer. I can’t […]
I’m gonna try and put this as simple as I can. A while ago I started self harming,I told my best friend after a few weeks,but then she started doing it. I felt so bad like it was all my fault,I had given her the idea of it and her scars and to be blamed by me. We’ll I stopped for a few months and I really thought I could over do this,but last week I started again. Cutting till I bleed but in a place no one could see. I can’t wear vests anymore. But that’s good because I hate my body. I’m trying […]
my email is open for anyone, any age, gender, sexuality, raice, ANYBODY and awlays will be : selseyc@gmail.com
I can honestly say you’ve been on my mind all since i started talking to you,
I look at our conversations all the time, these memories come back to life
And it hurts inside
I remeber when you lied, you said you loved me,
That time when your called me our princess and baby girl
i remeber the simple things, i remeber till i cry
but the one thing i wanna forget is goodbye<3
What the fuck? The other day you were saying you loved me and how much i meant to you, you made me feel wanted, loved accpeted, you brought me out the dumps, my rock. But then things went wierd, you started to ignor me, so i message you “just asking but have i done something wrong?” and then his GIRLFRIEND replies from HIS phone, “This is his gf who thw fuck is tthis” and ofcourse im like, his girlfriend? he said he was single, why is she messaging me, he has my number, why is she asking? So i reply “Who is this” as in […]
Things have gotten abit better,but bys, why cant they make up their mind, at this age they all just adct the same, i thought he loed me but he just wanted to shag an im like “WOAH hold back aye? Just want somone who undertsands me.. Can someone please explain why boys act this way?
i DONT know how to write this, my life is shit, im moving soon and leaving everything, the love of my life is blocking me out becasue he is scared he will hurt me, im emotionally scared and wan to leave, everyone is happy but me, im in a forced relationship but i dont wanna hurt him, IMA ***** i hate myself. everyone hates me, i hate me i wanna die becasue if i tell anyone they will think im stupid, i tell my bestie everything but im moving and i will never see her! I need to say good bye now, so bye mum, […]
IF I CANT LIVE WITH YOU, I DONT WANT TO LIVE=READ MY PREVIOUS POST, SOMEONE HELP ME.
He did it, he broke my heart, we were talking fine then he started acting wierrd saying he cant talk to me becasue he will hurt me, now he isnt replying he is depressed im in tears, he was one of the reasons i stayed on this earth now he is gone, i told him how i feel, but he says i cant trust me he ruins lifes, but he made mine better,he wont listen, and i  cant live without him, i am home alone tomorrow i will do it then
selseyc@gmail.com
Hey guys if you ever need anyone to speak to-i dont care how old you are/your gender, talk to me i am a very good listener and can help people get through things, email me- selseyc@gmail.com    Kik me- ChelseyNewman     Ok thanks x
I always say ” Sucicide is not the answer” But now im thinking differently, i need help, but everyone just laughs at me, i wanna runaway, fly away and smile for once, not be sat in a ddarkk room crying.
I wan to run away, and wake up in another day, live in silence for a day, no stress, no tears, freedom.
I reaallyyyyyyyyyy like this guy, we used to talk everyday but whenever he has a girlfrind he starts ignoreing me, he calls me bby and puts my hopes up and makes me feel wanted, i feel like i want to die whe he doesnt talk to me.